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God of My Everything is a prayer that I wrote watching my older brother’s 15-year struggle with addiction and recovery.   It is a difficult thing to speak openly in our Christian communities about what it means for a fellow believer to struggle with something as culturally frowned upon as addiction…but it has been perhaps the most inspiring story that I have ever witnessed.  I have seen firsthand what it means for someone to truly offer God everything…every lie, every deceptive word, every foolish thought, every weakness, every single thing finally laid down before the mercy of God.  I watched God step into the humiliation and the shame and the brokenness of addiction (and all the peripheral damage that goes along with it) and impart a brand of goodness and healing that is simply incomprehensible.  We hear it said over and over again that God wants us “just as we are,” but I don’t think we really believe it.  This song is a prayer for God to truly be the God of everything…every single part of us…the good and the grotesque.  To acknowledge that God is the God of our most shameful failures, our fears, our faults, our brokenness, and even our addictions – and yet his love for us DOES NOT CHANGE – is to acknowledge that God is truly the God of our salvation, our peace, our hope and our absolute healing.

One of the phrases used often in recovery is “you’re only as sick as your secrets.”  It’s one of the reasons that confession and speaking things out loud is such a foundational element in the process of recovery.  What a profound and powerful truth.  I would dare say that much of the damage of addiction comes not from the darkness of substances that are put inside the body, but in the darkness of secrets that are held inside the heart.  How true that rings to ALL of us, not just those suffering from addiction.  The cycles of guilt and shame in our lives that cause us to bury secret after secret behind lies and deception and facades of “stability” constantly bombard us and steal the life that God intends for us.

What are we afraid to lay before God?  What are we afraid to let go of?  What is our “everything?”  My brother’s “everything” was his addiction, and all the secrets that go with it.  Our secrets can sometimes be something as serious as addiction, but they can also be simple deceptions that are equally as invasive and destructive.  One of the great struggles of my life has been doubt.  My mind gets twisted around all that this world, and even theology, throws our way and I begin to doubt who I am, where this world is headed, and who God is.  It is constant and daily effort to offer that doubt before God, and more importantly to realize that He WANTS it.  That He wants every single part of me, even the dark and hidden corners.  God is not intimidated by my doubt.  God is not intimidated by my brother’s addiction.  And God is not intimidated by your “everything” either.  I believe in a God who is bigger than that.

The question is, what is your “everything?”  There is a reason that confession and speaking things out loud is such a foundational part of the addiction recovery process. But it’s a borrowed idea…borrowed from the scripture itself.  We hope to make this an open forum where you can feel free to lay down your “everything” before a community of fellow strugglers, anonymously if you so choose, in hopes that we can inspire transparency before one another, but more importantly before God.

 

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  • I too struggle with doubt. Am I saved, am I doing what God\'s will is for me? How do I know? I don\'t feel the Holy Spirit inside me except when I\'m worshiping, only then do I have an amazing, goose bumps kinda relief that brings tears to my eyes and peace to my heart. I pray all the time that I\'ll ...
    I too struggle with doubt. Am I saved, am I doing what God\'s will is for me? How do I know? I don\'t feel the Holy Spirit inside me except when I\'m worshiping, only then do I have an amazing, goose bumps kinda relief that brings tears to my eyes and peace to my heart. I pray all the time that I\'ll hear God\'s will for me because I really want to hear, I really want to know the will of God for me but somehow I don\'t think I hear it, then the doubt comes in. All I know is one day I want to be on my knees in front of God hearing job well done, job well done. But right now all I think is what job is He asking me to do right now? Thank you Bebo for listening to Him and knowing His will for you to share your gift of music with us.
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  • I just wanna hear the song man and it won\'t play, wassup with that???
  • I was just on here and really wanted to hear this song but couldn\'t and then thought what the heck...I don\'t want to get confused here on this site b/c I suffer from terrible pain from a botched up neck surgry in 09 and have to take these damned pain pills to just move and I still have pain even tho I...
    I was just on here and really wanted to hear this song but couldn\'t and then thought what the heck...I don\'t want to get confused here on this site b/c I suffer from terrible pain from a botched up neck surgry in 09 and have to take these damned pain pills to just move and I still have pain even tho I take these pills. I cannot imagine my life without them, and that I am dependent on them to releive the pain, does that mean that I am hooked? I am questioning myself but also know that my quality of life would not be worth living w/o them..I would be in constant pain all the time so I don\'t think that I should feel the way I do, I\'m not using them to get high but to just get by...please tell me that this is OK??? I would hate to think of myself as a junkie....Please someone tell me....
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  • I too struggle with doubt. My husband has struggled with addiction for many years. Now that he is in God\'s hand and is undergoing great transformation I doubt myself. When he returns will I be that same wife I was before? Will I let go of who we once were? Will I be a good enough mother to teach my ...
    I too struggle with doubt. My husband has struggled with addiction for many years. Now that he is in God\'s hand and is undergoing great transformation I doubt myself. When he returns will I be that same wife I was before? Will I let go of who we once were? Will I be a good enough mother to teach my kids about the importance of a \"real\" relationship with our Heavenly Father. Will I continue on the path God has lead me too? It is true that we all have our faults and I am so grateful to God for the sacrifice He gave to bring me new life. Life is not meant to be roses and butterflies, but if we stay connected and stay \"real\" to God he will carry us through every storm.
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  • Ah, I\'m 17, and I\'ve had a very long struggle with homosexuality. It too involved much deception and lies and there were times when I really doubted my worth and wondered if there was a way out or a way for God to ever use me. But he has really proved faithful and even in the darkest of times he show...
    Ah, I\'m 17, and I\'ve had a very long struggle with homosexuality. It too involved much deception and lies and there were times when I really doubted my worth and wondered if there was a way out or a way for God to ever use me. But he has really proved faithful and even in the darkest of times he showed me light and even when I wasn\'t looking for him he found me. This song has really meant a lot to me...the fact that God loves us with all our problems, pains and addictions is amazing. Confession is an important part of the healing process. It can be awful, terrible and heartbreaking, but for us to come to a full understanding of God\'s love, mercy, and grace It may well be one of the best things you ever do.
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  • There\'s an element of doubt that seeps into my thinking from time to time. This life -- this world -- tells you to doubt everything. Being there with my dad when he died was a challenge, and the doubt (mixed with lies) blended with my thoughts that if I had faith, enough faith, he could be healed. An...
    There\'s an element of doubt that seeps into my thinking from time to time. This life -- this world -- tells you to doubt everything. Being there with my dad when he died was a challenge, and the doubt (mixed with lies) blended with my thoughts that if I had faith, enough faith, he could be healed. And just two years later when my son committed suicide, doubt soaked into my life the way a dry sponge soaks in water. If I had been a better father... If I had adopted him earlier in his life (he was 13 when I adopted him)... If I had prayed more... Then I look at the world -- just a glimpse -- from another perspective. The whole of eternity from never-ending to never-ending that God sees, keeps me holding on to the one counter to doubt.... hope.
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  • My downfall came 2 years ago when I lost my only brother who was addicted to drugs, painkillers, sexual addction, his many demons...He gave his heart 2 the lord 3 months before he passed. in those three months he did a change not radical, like some would see on the outside, but him and my baby sister be...
    My downfall came 2 years ago when I lost my only brother who was addicted to drugs, painkillers, sexual addction, his many demons...He gave his heart 2 the lord 3 months before he passed. in those three months he did a change not radical, like some would see on the outside, but him and my baby sister became closer than ever1 :*). He died tragically in a horrible vehicular accident, out on an icy snow covered road all by himself, he was life flighted to a hospital in a big city with a broken neck, broken ribs, puctured lung and he would be a vegetable if he lived. To make this short, I had just had a surgey 6 months prior and went straight into menopause, my husband has got laid off right after my surgery, I fell into a deep depression and YES it happens to Christian people, One because we are so overwhelmed at our circumstances we forget to bend our knees. My brother was in a coma for 3 days, but before he died his pastor prayed again the sinners prayer and in that coma my brother shed tears. Praise the lord for his mercy and his saving power. i dont understand how people can profess Chritianity and live like the devil! God has to hear our prayers and One sure way is when we talk it out loud and PRAY!!he Loves it and all the demons of hell will flee!!!!Blessed by your song GOD IS MY EVERYTHING!!!!
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  • I just wanted to let the people who have shared their stories on this site that I think they are wonderful, and I am so thankful that they lean into God even in the mist of battle...I am proud of their accomplishments and their stories, I wish that someone would have answered me when I posted but I\'m i...
    I just wanted to let the people who have shared their stories on this site that I think they are wonderful, and I am so thankful that they lean into God even in the mist of battle...I am proud of their accomplishments and their stories, I wish that someone would have answered me when I posted but I\'m in love with God so I will be alright too. To I am 17, just remember that God loves us all no matter what kind of lifestyle we are in, how can we think that He doesn\'t when He is an all loving and forgiving God, people should remember this when they start to pass judgement on others.....I love you no matter who you are and I know that our Father does too...keep on looking to Him. And to the wife who doubts, you know the answer to your questions already...you didn\'t say where your husband is but I\'m assuming in a treatment place which is a great start for both of you and you are still the proverbial wife that you have been in the past and will be in the future. Hold onto your Father and listen to what He says. The enemies are within, My child. Over the years you have given room for hiding places for them, They are permitted to plague you until your repentance is complere. Complete repentance means a final and absolute turning from the sin-filled fantasies and thoughts you have indulged. A holy harted of the Babylonish garment in required... As long as the harassing fears and foreboding come, fight aganist them with the weapons I have provided--believing prayer and grateful praise. They cannot prevail aganist these, and their attacks will turn into blessings.....For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power , and love and a of a sound mind......II Timothy 1:7. Thank you Lord Jesus!!!
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  • Bebo, I still just wanna hear your song and have not been able to, but from the people on this site who have heard it, I know it is a great song so please make it avaiable to me, you have my email address so I ask once again please let me hear it!!!!
  • Wow, reading these comments brought tears to my eyes! I just want to encourage all of you to keep on keeping on! Our walk with the Lord is a process: not an instantaneous change. We are promised many rewards if we continue, persevere, and never completely give up. We will have discouragements and doubts...
    Wow, reading these comments brought tears to my eyes! I just want to encourage all of you to keep on keeping on! Our walk with the Lord is a process: not an instantaneous change. We are promised many rewards if we continue, persevere, and never completely give up. We will have discouragements and doubts...but the important thing is that we keep turning back to our loving heavenly Abba (Daddy!) who is great in mercy. \"It is of the Lord\'s mercies that we are not consumed. His compassion never fails, it is new every morning! Great is His Faithfulness!\"-Lam.3: 22-23 You 17 yr-olds show amazing spiritual insight! and the comment: what is the Lord telling me to do right now, really spoke to me, as I have been reading a lot of Michael Phillips historical novels, and he\'s been greatly influenced by George MacDonald and they both say the same thing! I had to confess to the Lord recently that I have a tendency to be unethical and made a vow to Him that I would be completely honest from now on...it\'s so hard to admit our faults, but if we don\'t we cannot grow...He will keep challenging us until we learn our lesson...so let\'s not throw in the towel, \"for we are not of those who shrink back and lose the prize.\" If we don\'t listen and keep rejecting what he\'s telling us to do, I do think we can reach a point of no return, but as long as we continue to cry out to Him for mercy, and then OBEY what He tells us, His forgiveness is unfailing. I suffer from chronic depression and have had christians reject me because of it, but I know that He marked me as His own and afflicted me for HIS Glory...so that I in turn can reach out to others who are suffering and minister to them out of a humble, compassionate heart. Just one more verse for you all: \"Let us hear the conclusion of the whole matter:Fear God and keep His commandments, For this is man\'s all. For God will bring every work into judgment, including every secret thing, whether good or evil.\" Eccl. 12:13-14 In His Love, Praying for each of you!
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  • At 51 years old I was in my last rehab, two bouts of hepatitis (didn\'t even know I had Hepatitis C), nerve damage all through my body from car wrecks, etc., two back surgeries for disc problems, a huge pain killer addiction; and I used the pain killers to kick the addiction to injecting cocaine and met...
    At 51 years old I was in my last rehab, two bouts of hepatitis (didn\'t even know I had Hepatitis C), nerve damage all through my body from car wrecks, etc., two back surgeries for disc problems, a huge pain killer addiction; and I used the pain killers to kick the addiction to injecting cocaine and meth together. I had problems with my body that I didn\'t even know were parts: thyroid all out of whack; brain damage on the right side of my head, couldn\'t see nor hear very well any more and could barely read despite having a college degree.To say I was an alcoholic would be an understatement. The pain inside was even worse than the pain outside. I literally spent the last 10 years of my life waking up and wishing for death. But no matter how goofy I got, it wouldn\'t come. I didn\'t want to die, but I just couldn\'t see any way that this could change. Way too many things to fix and learn.Been to AA, gotten a lot of desire chips to indicate a desire to stop drinking, tried reading the book but couldn\'t put it together. Obviously, I was unwilling, close-minded and dishonest - they tell you you must be willing, open-minded and honest. Well, I was none of those things. I grew up in church, did it all. Memorized scripture (even have a little trophy indicating how much I memorized), read from Luke at Christmas for my mom and aunts while my dad and his brothers sat outside drinking and smoking. Went to church every Sunday ... with my mom but not my dad. You get the idea. My dad drank a LOT but was so responsible it was unreal. Worked hard, helped others, was on the board of Salvation Army, United Way, business leader in our city, good guy all around. Just not home ... even when he was home. My mom was a straight Christian, didn\'t drink, smoke, cuss and suffered from manic depression all her life. In and out of institutions. And when you left me alone with her ... well there\'s a lot of stuff that is literally burned out of my memory but still comes up in dreams. I had a good connection with God from birth but somehow by age 10 fear took over... big time. By age 12 I was considering suicide. No one wanted to hear why I was depressed nor why my grades had gone from all A\'s to D\'s and F\'s by 5th grade. At 13 I discovered alcohol with my friends. Living in a middle to upper-middle class home and I so wished God would show up and take me home. I missed Him. But I couldn\'t come (didn\'t have the guts) to kill myself. So, I pretty much determined I was going to have fun and we\'ll let the cards fall where they may. Full of resentments, fear, harms toward others was coming fast with no way to let it out. I hear some people say they never intended to become an alcoholic nor a drug addict. I honestly dreamed of becoming these because at least then I\'d be something. I was expelled from my public high school by 16 and basically was told I wasn\'t really all that popular amongst the parents at church once it was revealed I had been using drugs after I confessed in a church youth group when trying to turn my life over to Christ. Well, I said basically \'the heck with this\' and left church, Christ and everyone going back to my life of drugs. Fast forward to age 51. Married now for 20 years, one daughter, not a mean alcoholic, in fact one that would help anyone with their rent, to get some money to score, but just so messed up inside I couldn\'t stop. Tried one rehab the year before when I was determined to kick the alcohol. No one had ever told or even hinted that I should stop drinking. Just get your stuff together and be more responsible. At the 1st rehab they examined a lot of stuff inside that we wrote and we watched a lot of videos on addiction, they even recommended I find a \'higher power\' to work the 12 Steps. I knew about God, but He was way over there and I was way over here. We didn\'t have a lot in common. I met some guys who had gotten sober, but no one who had been just crushed inside and had gotten a connection with God. So, I didn\'t stay sober long. A year later I\'m in my last rehab. I\'m so fried by now my family had done what they called the \'Hail May move\'. They had thrown me as far from home to the best rehab they could find with no hope that it would really work but that they had to try because they were pretty sure I\'d be dead or permanently in a mental institution (either of which I would have welcomed) in at least another year. And these are people who drink. After getting out of detox I had to attend these introductory meetings at 8AM every morning. I didn\'t mind too much as long as someone could walk me there. I could barely walk without the nerves in my back and legs killing me. So, I\'m sitting there and hearing this guy who had basically been where I had been. I couldn\'t hear him very well because the meds kept making me pass out in the meeting, but he was talking about somehow getting connected with God, cleaning out the past and that God would run your life. All I heard was \'God would run your life\'. I didn\'t say it out loud but inside I was laughing: God would run my life? You are surely \'kidding\' me. Cause that\'s about as stupid as I can imagine. Why would God mess with me? I\'m an idiot.. I know, God doesn\'t make garbage. Yea, you want to look at my past, amigo? I pretty much spit in His face 35 years ago. Whatever. No talk about Jesus, never heard of the Holy Spirit. Just the concept that God would take over. No one had EVER told me that, no in real terms. I used to hear people say they have a \'personal relationship with Jesus Christ\' and thought man, if I had that it would certainly be a bigger deal than what I hear coming out of them. In the Steps I had to \'admit\' that I was powerless over alcohol and that my life was unmanageable. Sheesh, no problem there. Haha. The next idea was that a power greater than myself was going to restore me to sanity. Don\'t know anything about powers greater than myself (could just he real one show up?) and I haven\'t been sane inside of myself since I was about 8 or 9. So, I skipped that part (I thought). What I didn\'t know was that I did believe because I saw it was working in that guy, but I just could intellectualize it because I was too fried mentally. Third part was to turn my will and my life over to God as I understood him. No matter how many times they tried to explain this to me I still had it in my head that I had to literally understand God before I could turn my life over to Him. Well, thank you God. Because He basically guided me in prayer. I went to an outdoor chapel where I wasn\'t supposed to be late at night, got on my knees and started just talking. I wanted to know how this guy could have God (he was still cussing, too!) and I couldn\'t. When finally I just said in a fit of exasperation \'Would the real God just show up?\' If whoever He is would come take over, I\'d be more than glad to let Him. I started laughing at the idea. What would I have to offer God? I\'ve cheated on my wife more times than I can could, had killed a guy in a head on collision, taken a number of girls through abortions because it wasn\'t convenient for them to have a child with no dad. I mean, I was married. I\'m not a bad guy, just really awful stuff was coming out of me and in my path behind me. I\'ve damaged my body so badly and I\'m too old to rehabilitate. Either kill me or take over. And then the tears started and I just let it rip. I was so messed up and needed help in a thousand ways, Didn\'t know how He could ever forgive me for all I\'ve done but please, please come take me. Please just take my mind and trade it for a new one. Now these are not thoughts I\'d certainly every had before. I hang out in bars and shoot pool and drive home with one hand over my eye to keep between the lines. Next day I woke up and something was very different. It suddenly dawned on me that something was happening inside of me and honestly, it freaked me out. I didn\'t know anything about \'spiritual\' stuff and I had no idea what I had tapped into. But whatever it was I sensed it was good. The obsession to drink was gone. Now I had committed to not drinking ever again before (which didn\'t work) but this was different. It was GONE. And something was lit up big time inside of me. All the pain was gone and I couldn\'t stop smiling. I thought oh, man what do you do now? I guess get on my knees by the bed and say \'Thank you,.... to uh, God I guess. I wasn\'t sure if it was God but had a good idea it must be. Now, you might think how great that is. But the other great part is that He has never let me walk away. It took at least 3 years for the vision blurriness and ear ringing to fade. My liver healed itself somehow according to the doctors. (That\'s nothing compared to me being sober. I\'m still stunned almost 8 years later.) I prayed everyday that Third Step prayer asking him to take my life. I also prayed two other prayer: to never ever let me drink nor do drugs again. I didn\'t ask Him to help me just for today. I asked that He never let me drink again or take me home. I also prayed that He never let me walk away from Him again, cause I had done that before and obviously it didn\'t go well. Today, I lead a pretty good life. My wife and I have a relationship that\'s better than when we first got married. I\'ve worked the Steps, which are all right out of the Bible and bring me so close to God. Everyone I sponsor and that I\'m around know I\'m a Christian and I\'m going to pray in the name of Jesus Christ every time. My life is a cosmic joke that God has played on the world. I am the man living in the tombs, the crippled guy who had been begging for 38 years, blind guy that everyone told to shut up, Mary Magdalene - all of them. I am soooo grateful I could still cry and I\'m will to share and help pretty much anyone in my path. I know this is long winded but you asked. A local magazine did a video on my recovery and it\'s part in our church if anyone is interested. It\'s on YouTube and I\'ll gladly post it if it\'s OK. Thanks guys. Have a great day. Peace. Tom
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  • I fear failure and my life seems to be filled with it. I have had many dreams of which have only been just that. I fear dying having lived a life that didn\'t matter...having not made a difference or left a legacy. This fear consumes me and impacts my walk with God greatly. For years I sang on ...
    I fear failure and my life seems to be filled with it. I have had many dreams of which have only been just that. I fear dying having lived a life that didn\'t matter...having not made a difference or left a legacy. This fear consumes me and impacts my walk with God greatly. For years I sang on a worship team and in the choir. I loved it. I stepped down after being told my worship was not authentic. Later I asked to come back and was told that I wasn\'t welcome and that my pitch was not what it needed to be. Since then, I have not been able to find my place in the body. I have tried many other avenues...all of which did not work out. Now, I am trying to write a book and have been told I should engage in public speaking. But, due to past events...and many other things in life that I have not included in this testimony...I lack the confidence and I fear failure. So, I am not making much progress in the writing/public speaking arena. I am causing my own failure...perhaps subconsciously sabotaging it before somebody else does. I have made so many attempts to make a difference...to do what I feel called to do....only to fail...even and especially in my parenting. My heart is so broken. I have been in counseling. I just can\'t seem to heal. I feel useless and worthless...and even though I know this isn\'t from God...I can\'t seem to shake it off. I can\'t seem to let it go and trust God like I know I should...like I am always preaching to others. I feel like a hypocrite I often forget my purpose...because I feel so unqualified to do anything. But, then again...aren\'t the least likely the ones that God uses in the Bible? If so...then therein is my hope because I am definitely the least likely..
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  • I guess my biggest struggles are with doubt and consistency. Often I come away from science classes thinking that what I heard is very convincing and I have doubts about my faith. I also wonder a lot if I am doing what God wants me to do, and I feel guilty a lot for no being the example I need to be. Ho...
    I guess my biggest struggles are with doubt and consistency. Often I come away from science classes thinking that what I heard is very convincing and I have doubts about my faith. I also wonder a lot if I am doing what God wants me to do, and I feel guilty a lot for no being the example I need to be. How can I get the fire going again? I also struggle with consistently reading the Bible and doing devotions. I enjoy it for a while, then I actually get bored sometimes. I wonder often what I could do to make it exciting again. I want to feel the pleasure of God\'s presence. I am trying hard to overcome theses areas, and I pray to God that He will bring me through these struggles.
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  • Lewd thoughts and lust are something that I\'ve actually struggled with for quite a while...and every time i think I\'ve finally conquered it, bam! it comes back and i realize just how far I have to go. at first it really got me down; i kept thinking \'well does this mean i\'m not Ch...
    Lewd thoughts and lust are something that I\'ve actually struggled with for quite a while...and every time i think I\'ve finally conquered it, bam! it comes back and i realize just how far I have to go. at first it really got me down; i kept thinking \'well does this mean i\'m not Christian enough?\' or \' was i even ever a Christian in the first place?\' you know questions the devil like to throw at you when you\'re feeling especially weak. But the beauty of it all is that it\'s at though times, when i feel my most wretched and ugly and just plain gross, when i\'m at my breaking point and the devil seems to be on a rampage, that God shows just how powerful He is! just how lovely and good and FAITHFUL! it completely blows me away..every single time. and he\'s teaching me, more and more each day, not only how to overcome this but more importantly how to trust Him with it all; with every bit of me!
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  • Started using drugs and having sex when i was 11 years old. Anything to escape what was going on at home. Physical, mental, sexual and verbal abuse constantly from age 6 until i ran away from home when i was 14 (for the umpteenth time). Lived on the street or at friends houses (sometimes a relatives hou...
    Started using drugs and having sex when i was 11 years old. Anything to escape what was going on at home. Physical, mental, sexual and verbal abuse constantly from age 6 until i ran away from home when i was 14 (for the umpteenth time). Lived on the street or at friends houses (sometimes a relatives house)for years. I was raised in a Jewish home but it was such a farce. I filled my void with everything imaginable except the Lord. I am 55 now and when I was 36 I came to the Lord. It was a rocky road leaving my sinful life behind but not as rocky as the life I led before Jesus rescuing me from inevitable DEATH-literally. Jesus took me just as I was and changed me into just who I am now. Thank you Lord for loving me so much.
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  • I have struggled with depression for so long. God has been working on one-by-one on breaking the holds Satan has in the lie departments in different areas of my life. It\'s taken years. However, knowing that God is the God of Everything, even the ugliness within me is His promise to me that as l...
    I have struggled with depression for so long. God has been working on one-by-one on breaking the holds Satan has in the lie departments in different areas of my life. It\'s taken years. However, knowing that God is the God of Everything, even the ugliness within me is His promise to me that as long as I keep allowing Him to, He will win the war! Thank you for this song. It perfectly expresses my testimony.
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  • I am a single mom... I try and be perfect in every thing I do, work, clooege, raisind my daughter by myself on public assistance. When I FAIL I beat myself up.. I try and \" br Jesus\", try to measure up to his perfection....i have no clue why I do this. i think it has alot to do with my chil...
    I am a single mom... I try and be perfect in every thing I do, work, clooege, raisind my daughter by myself on public assistance. When I FAIL I beat myself up.. I try and \" br Jesus\", try to measure up to his perfection....i have no clue why I do this. i think it has alot to do with my childhhod and having a mom who didn\'t \" try\' to do the right thing . i guess my fear of failing has alot to do with why i push so hard... i dont want my daughter to have the childhood i did....but i am clearly NOT JESUS i guess i need to learn to fail...
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  • i too cannot get the song/music video to play! but heard bebo sing this song in concert a couple weeks ago- brings tears to my eyes and bougth another ocean cd for my friend -great music
  • I\'ve had an addiction to food. I know, it sounds silly, but as I sit in this quiet house...my beautiful family asleep, I pondered \"my addiction\". Sadly, it\'s been an addiction my whole life. I can\'t remember ever being a \"normal\" size. I pray for God to help...
    I\'ve had an addiction to food. I know, it sounds silly, but as I sit in this quiet house...my beautiful family asleep, I pondered \"my addiction\". Sadly, it\'s been an addiction my whole life. I can\'t remember ever being a \"normal\" size. I pray for God to help me with my temtations, but always seem to take 10 steps forward and 8 steps back. It\'s hard to love youself at times - the more I read, pray, study, and listen to worship praises and songs...I realize that God truly does love me. He loves me for \"me\". He loves me for my everything. But I pray daily to respect his temple that he has given me. I\'m better - I\'m aware - and I\'m worthy. Bebo, addictions come in many avenues - I\'ve seen more than I care to share, but your words gave more meaning to this song. You made it personal and inspiring. Thank you to you and your brother for sharing. To say something so open and honestly is difficult. Writing this is difficult. I didn\'t feel so alone when I read other\'s words so felt inspired to share what was on my mind and heart. Growing is a process. \"Trust in the Lord and do good\" - I\'m so thankful to the Lord for being patient with me and for the grace he bestows upon me daily. He\'s there for us.
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  • I struggled with alcohol for many years, and not realizing why I drank. I assumed it was for fun and enjoyment, but I continued down the road of lies and hurt, It wasn\'t until I began losing everything thing in my life that I finally turned to God for help. I came to the fact that I couldn\'...
    I struggled with alcohol for many years, and not realizing why I drank. I assumed it was for fun and enjoyment, but I continued down the road of lies and hurt, It wasn\'t until I began losing everything thing in my life that I finally turned to God for help. I came to the fact that I couldn\'t fight this battle anymore on my own. I wondered at the time why God would forgive me and accept me back as his son after all of the things I had done. But I found the answer in the Parable of the Lost Son (Luke 15:11-24). He is a graceful and loving God. I realized that He never left me, I was the one who left him. It hasn\'t been until recently that everything I have stuffed and drowned with alcohol has started to surface in my life in the form of depression and making me feel like my foundation is cracking like under an earthquake. I am seekling help with dealing with these things in my life. But I am happy to say that with this year I will have 11 years of sobriety. But there have been many struggles within those years to make me go back to drinking to deal with them. First off, I related to the song, because I too had a brother with an addiction. With many struggles and battles over the years that he dealt with, he lost his battle with addiction and was found dead in a bathroom stall with a blood alcohol level of .43 in 2007. The first thing I wanted to do was drink, because at first I couldnt handle dealing with this sober. But I was able to speak to God my feelings about losing him. And I felt Him say that it will be ok, and just trust in him. And I did. Second thing was I found out my dad developed oral cancer from drinking and smoking for many years. I was scared to lose my dad, especially since we were still putting our relationship back together after many rocky years after my parents divorce. But thankfully through God, I was able to get through that season with his help, along with being the physician that took the cancer out of my dad and made him a survivor. With all of this, I believe that God has used everything for a greater purpose. Along with my sobriety, I work with teens in a secure residential alcohol and drug treatment program and conduct a weekly bible study inside a local county jail. I love the beginning of the song that says \"Gather the pieces that are broken Show me the wonder of You again\" These are words that I needed to hear when I heard the song today. Its exaclty the prayer I need to give to God. Thank you for your great music Bebo!! God Bless.....
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  • My struggle is with fear. This has been in the last few years. Fear that something wouldn\'t happen that needs to. Fear I wouldn\'t have enough money to cover everything this month, or maybe even next month. Fear just goes on and on. Thank you for listening, and the song.
  • My everything is the struggle with sexual immorality and the SHAME of abortion. I don\'t deserve God forgiven and can\'t forgive myself.
  • I grew up w/a dad w/ undiagnosed mental probs -- & a mom so codependent that she just got sick & sicker herself instead of learn\'g a way to live w/him, we were abused as well as neglected. But having had a lifelong dream that I\'d someday do someth\'g huge in the world -- and al...
    I grew up w/a dad w/ undiagnosed mental probs -- & a mom so codependent that she just got sick & sicker herself instead of learn\'g a way to live w/him, we were abused as well as neglected. But having had a lifelong dream that I\'d someday do someth\'g huge in the world -- and all along teachers, principles, professors, etc. tell\'g me how fantastically gifted I was -- I reserved hope. But the shame imparted thru both parents hurt my identity, and I\'m ashamed to say that though still in love w/God -- and though I prayed a lot -- I guess I didn\'t really EXPECT him to take care of me. Siblings practiced abuse on -- & turned against -- each other. More abuse turned me into a cowering, timid hater -- of myself. I\'ve carried an inability to bond through adulthood, and so added severe isolation to my baggage. Mid-life crisis -- & childlessness -- has now become a burden of monumental proport\'ns, as I begin to feel hopeless again. The one positive thing I have is a husband; but how could he ever really understand that I get virtually nothing done around the house because my day is so full of fretting, regretting, running to the bathroom, and running \"in circles\". I need God to erase my past and be my future; I need help for God to be my everything.
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  • I love your music. It has gotten me through so much. I survived thyroid cancer... anytime I say that people get this shocked look on their face. Yes, I know cancer is huge - trust me. I know it is scary to hear the words \"It was cancer\". But what is scarier? Yes, there is scarier. I will tel...
    I love your music. It has gotten me through so much. I survived thyroid cancer... anytime I say that people get this shocked look on their face. Yes, I know cancer is huge - trust me. I know it is scary to hear the words \"It was cancer\". But what is scarier? Yes, there is scarier. I will tell you what is scarier. It is scarier wondering every single day if you are doing what God has called for you to do. Am I making the decisions that He would have me make for my life? Is He going to provide for me all of the things I yearn for - a man to love me as He does, a family for the Lord, a job I love, a place called \"home\". I know He is SO big and that doubting his power is incredibly weak and untrustworthy of me, but that is harder than cancer. Cancer was handed to me. I didn\'t have to make that decision. It was all medical. Facts. Science. These decisions aren\'t made for me. These are are the ones based on faith. I don\'t know where to start... It\'s on the tip of my heart.
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  • To the girl that posted the second comment about the abortion- I know how you feel. I had one, and it is the worst thing to deal with the shame. Take courage, God delivered me needing men to validate me, because I wanted to be loved, and has healed me from the pain of the worst decision I ever made. ...
    To the girl that posted the second comment about the abortion- I know how you feel. I had one, and it is the worst thing to deal with the shame. Take courage, God delivered me needing men to validate me, because I wanted to be loved, and has healed me from the pain of the worst decision I ever made. I can\'t say you won\'t have days where you don\'t hurt, because you will, but I want you to remember. Don\'t let it hold you back from having a child in the future. I was punishing myself, but now that God has helped me to know how He views me, I am a mother. He Makes All Things New, and As Far As The East Is From the West, So Has He Removed Our Transgressions From Us. Psalms 103:12 Much love to you darling. He is your healer, He is your deliverer. You are his, and you are beautiful.
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  • I have been without a fulltime job since early January a,d have had many feamily struggles due to that fact. I put everything in Gods hands to resolve it and beleive he will. He has always bben faithful in times past and I know he will be again. I have found alot of Humilty in being unemployed, but als...
    I have been without a fulltime job since early January a,d have had many feamily struggles due to that fact. I put everything in Gods hands to resolve it and beleive he will. He has always bben faithful in times past and I know he will be again. I have found alot of Humilty in being unemployed, but also I have had more time to be with God and seek his grace and answers.I believe that it is his will to restore everything. I know this compare to other stories but it\'s mine and it\'s my need. That\'s God is my God of Everything.
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  • I was raised in a family where I didn\'t feel much love.  Except that of all the different people abusing me.  6 different people thought they had a right to my body, like they owned me or something. It started when I was just 2 years old and didn\'t stop until the age of 19.  I never reall...
    I was raised in a family where I didn\'t feel much love.  Except that of all the different people abusing me.  6 different people thought they had a right to my body, like they owned me or something. It started when I was just 2 years old and didn\'t stop until the age of 19.  I never really had any concept of God growing up but I had heard His name.  When I was 7 I started cutting myself and at the age of 12 I had my first suicide attempt.  Also at that age I started starving myself.  By the time I hit high school I was a full blown alcoholic and right after graduation I left everything I knew to live on the streets to be a drug addict where I was raped 6 times.  I always asked myself where God was in all of this.  If He loved me SO much why wouldn\'t he make everything stop.  Little did I know He was right there hold me the whole time.  I am now about to turn 22 and I have been sober for almost 3 years.  Jesus Christ is THE most important and influential person in my life.  I no longer have to feel the pain I thought I deserved because Jesus calls me His own and tells me that I\'m worth so much more!  I am the daughter of a King!     I\'ve made mistakes, man I\'ve made mistakes, but Jesus says that I can be forgiven through Him!  And I have been!  People have hurt me but I can forgive them because my savior has forgiven me!  He continues to bless my life and reveal Himself to me daily!   I can\'t imagine my life without Him.  My calling in life is to be a therapist for abused children and teenagers.  And God wants me to get my story out there to show people that they don\'t need to feel ashamed of where theyve come from and to let them know that He was holding them through it all!  Thank you for taking the time to read my testimony.  I hope it helps at least one person in this world.  Just one can make a difference!  :D (yesterday I celebrated 3 years sober!)
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  • God has given me the gift of your music! You may not know this Bebo but your music, your voice, your lyrics have been my salvation for many years. I too, have a brother, who has struggled with addiction his whole life, but unfortunately never got the opportunity to overcome it because God had much bigge...
    God has given me the gift of your music! You may not know this Bebo but your music, your voice, your lyrics have been my salvation for many years. I too, have a brother, who has struggled with addiction his whole life, but unfortunately never got the opportunity to overcome it because God had much bigger and better plans for him up in heaven. His name is Eric and he passed away at the age of 30 years old, just 3 years ago. My brother was a very loyal, devoted, good-hearted Christian and he absolutely loved the Lord! His unfailing faith inspired me so much that I too followed alongside him in our quest for a close relationship with God. It was our relationship with God that brought us closer together as a brother and sister and as best-friends. We loved going to church so much, we went at least 3 times a week, each time standing side by side. I also volunteered as a Sunday school teacher, my brother went out on the streets passing out the word of God, and we both attended the RU program offered through our church together. It wasn\'t until a moment in time, one weak moment that got the best of him, that I lost him. He went out alone one night, disappeared for a few days and then my family got the most dreaded \"phone call\" of our lives, February 14th 2008, Valentine\'s Day, is the day my brother\'s heart officially stopped. With all of today\'s technology and medical advances, the doctors were able to bring my brother back to life after 8 mins, but at that point, he was already in God\'s hands just hanging onto this world for us. I believe he stayed and slowly suffered because he was worried we were not ready to let go of him and he did not want to go without saying Goodbye. I knew that I had to do everything I could to make him fight and defeat all odds, so the only way I felt I could get through to him was to pray with him, read him the bible and play your music in his room. It was only a couple of months beforehand that he had introduced your music to me and we would listen to it almost every day, mostly during our car rides to and from church, I had never listened to Christian music before that, I was big on country music at the time, but I fell in love the first time I heard your song, I\'m Alright. That was Eric\'s favorite and now is mine. So, I put headphones on him as he layed there completly non-responsive in a coma, eyes shut and your music played for him. Then one night, as he layed there struggling to hang on and I sat there by his side holding his hand, his eyes opened up halfway for the very first time in 2 weeks. I stood up, looked into his eyes and I suddenly saw my big brother as a child again. Tears started to stream down the side of his face as he just looked at me in hopelessness and despair. I knew then that he was trying to tell me he was tired and that God wanted him to come home, I knew I had to be strong and tell him to let go. I asked if he knew that we loved him so very much with all our hearts and he nodded 3 times. I let him know that we forgave him, that nobody was mad at him and again he nodded 3 times. I then held his hand so very tightly and told him that it was ok to let go, not to be scared, that God loved him so very much and that it was time for him to go be with him in heaven. He nodded 3 more times and then his eyes slowly shut over the next couple of minutes as I stood there praying and trying so hard to hold back the tears. I explained to the nurse what had had just taken place when she came in and asked if maybe something showed up on the monitoring that his brain functioning was coming back, but she assurred me that he was completly non-responsive and that it was impossible for him to answer back. She apologized and then left the room. The next night he passed away. I believe to this day it was our faith in God combined that allowed us to communicate and see each other one more very last time against all logical reasoning or explantion. It was in that moment that I became a true believer in God\'s miracles! Since then, as I have listened more and more to your music, the music my brother gave to me as a gift, I realize what he was really giving me without even knowing it, was a message. Healing song, I\'m alright, Borrow mine, I will lift my eyes, Cover Me, Great Light of the World, I Am, Nothing Without You, all hand selected, he wanted me to know that he would never leave my side, that I could look to God to get through it all, that just because he wasn\'t on this earth anymore to stand by my side in church and in life, he is here now as my angel looking down above me, that he would never forget us and never leave us. I think he really needed me to know that I need to continue on keeping my faith strong now for the both of us. That I have to never forget that God has a plan for all of us and to never doubt that God really does has a great purpose for ME in this world. I think maybe, at this very moment, sharing my brother Eric\'s story is helping me realize part of that purpose. I would have never found my strength again, my faith, my heart, my purpose if I had never found his message through your music, I would have been lost. I Thank You from the Bottom of My Heart for being my messanger! You have become an angel here on Earth to me without ever even knowing it or ever even meeting me, :) That\'s just how good God is.
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  • I struggle with trusting God completely. I found out a few years ago that my husband would never be able to father children, and because of this, would not be able to bear my own children. At first, I wanted to blame my husband for this and our marriage struggled for quite some time. We have since appl...
    I struggle with trusting God completely. I found out a few years ago that my husband would never be able to father children, and because of this, would not be able to bear my own children. At first, I wanted to blame my husband for this and our marriage struggled for quite some time. We have since applied to be foster parents, and to adopt through the foster care system. We have been approved for over 6 months to foster children, and have not had one placement in our home. I want more than anything to be a mother, but why hasn\'t God blessed in that area of my life? We are still hoping to adopt through the foster care system, but it seems I have to give it to God constantly. He is God of my everything, including my desire to be a mother.
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  • wow. just, wow. this song hit me in the gut, and i\'m not even that strong a Christian. for the last 5 years, i\'ve been dealing with estrangement and disappointment in my family and myself. due to my social anxiety, i\'ve not found value or glory in myself, but that\'s only been...
    wow. just, wow. this song hit me in the gut, and i\'m not even that strong a Christian. for the last 5 years, i\'ve been dealing with estrangement and disappointment in my family and myself. due to my social anxiety, i\'ve not found value or glory in myself, but that\'s only been compounded by the departure of my sisters (and their children!) due to family issues. the loss of my sisters, nephews & nieces, has made made life very lonely for me, and has tested my faith in family and love (i\'m single on top of everything else). lastly, since we in my family are considered pillars of the community, i am forced to hide this information and pretend all is well on the homefront. in the end, it leaves me with no one to reach out or talk to, except the \"God of my pain that know one else will ever see.\" thank you, bebo...
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  • We were a typical middle class family until the economy failed. My husband is a Realtor. we were hit sledge hammer hard. He got his Insurance license and began delivering pizza\'s nights. We lost our cars, home and alot of other stuff I\'ve come to learn doesn\'t really matter. With 3 kid...
    We were a typical middle class family until the economy failed. My husband is a Realtor. we were hit sledge hammer hard. He got his Insurance license and began delivering pizza\'s nights. We lost our cars, home and alot of other stuff I\'ve come to learn doesn\'t really matter. With 3 kids still at home, we are never more than a month away from homelessness. It\'s a truly terrifying place to be. But what lessons I\'ve learned. Wouldn\'t trade them for anything. God is becoming, more and more, the God of my everything. In ways I couldn\'t have imagined living the American dream. In Him alone my security rests. And He is so fully capable.
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  • I think letting God have my children and trusting that He loved them more than I could. Recognizing that He wants the best He has to offer them and He is able to lead them, get them through the trials they\'ll go through provide for them, I think that was the hardest thing for me let Him be the Go...
    I think letting God have my children and trusting that He loved them more than I could. Recognizing that He wants the best He has to offer them and He is able to lead them, get them through the trials they\'ll go through provide for them, I think that was the hardest thing for me let Him be the God of.
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  • The title of my story is Jesus, is my God, Jesus, is my Father, Jesus, is my everything. Let\' say me and you were watching a suspenseful mystery movie. During the movie there were two main actors wearing a mask. Also both of the actors left almost the same clues but only one of them committed the...
    The title of my story is Jesus, is my God, Jesus, is my Father, Jesus, is my everything. Let\' say me and you were watching a suspenseful mystery movie. During the movie there were two main actors wearing a mask. Also both of the actors left almost the same clues but only one of them committed the crime. While you were watching the movie for five seconds one of the actors took of his mask and confessed that he was the one who committed the crime. Would you still think it was the other actor and keep examining all the clues and unanswered questions from the other actor? God the Father said he was the one on the cross and he even used personal pronouns that are irrefutable. Zechariah 12:10. The God of the Old Testament says and they shall look upon “ME” whom they have pierced. Then God said and they shall morn for “HIM” God the Father just revealed he was the one living in the body on the cross. Eph 4:4 There is one body, and one Spirit, Zechariah 12:10 And I will pour upon the house of David, and upon the inhabitants of Jerusalem, the spirit of grace and of supplications: and they shall look upon “ME” whom they have pierced, and they shall mourn for “HIM”, as one mourneth for his only son, and shall be in bitterness for “HIM”, as one that is in bitterness for his firstborn. John 4:24 God is a Spirit, and when he became God manifest in the flesh. 1Tim 3:16 he also became the God and Father of his own body. Most people never think of that concept in that manner. If God made a body to place his very own Spirit into, wouldn\'t he also be the God and Father of his own body. John 20:17 (King James Version) Jesus saith unto her, Touch me not; for I am not yet ascended to my Father: but go to my brethren, and say unto them, I ascend unto my Father, and your Father; and to my God, and your God. Also because he said in John 3:13 he is in heaven and on earth at the same time. He showed us that his new physical body was going to be united with his omnipresent Spirit that was also still in heaven. John 3:13 And no man hath ascended up to heaven, but he that came down from heaven, \"even the Son of man which is in heaven\". After all the bible does clearly state that there is only one God, and that he is the Father of all, and his one Spirit is in everything and in us all. Ephesians 4:4-6 There is one body, and one Spirit, even as ye are called in one hope of your calling; One Lord, one faith, one baptism, One God and Father of all, who is above all, and through all, and in you all.If Jesus is God why did Jesus pray? The answer is, all flesh must pray. God, in a human body as Jesus, fulfilled prophecy. Psalm 65:2 KJV O thou that hearest prayer, unto thee shall all flesh come.Jesus prayed to fulfill prophecy & Psalm 65:2 & Matthew 5:17-18 and also to give us an example of how to pray. Matthew 5:17-18 (King James Version)Think not that I am come to destroy the law, or the prophets: I am not come to destroy, but to fulfil.For verily I say unto you, Till heaven and earth pass, one jot or one tittle shall in no wise pass from the law, till all be fulfilled.John 3:13 (King James Version) Jesus said he was in heaven and on earth at the same time. And no man hath ascended up to heaven, but he that came down from heaven, even the Son of man which is in heaven. Jesus showed he was in heaven but his flesh was on earth and because God is a Spirit his Spirit was in both dimensions at the same time, simply put omnipresent. John 4:24 (King James Version)God is a Spirit: and they that worship him must worship him in spirit and in truth.)Revelation 22:3 (KJV) And there shall be no more curse: but the throne of God and of the Lamb shall be in it; and his servants shall serve him: There is only one throne that God sits on and the Lamb meaning the body. The verse also says and his servants shall serve \"him\" not them! God and the Lamb are one person body and Spirit.According to the scripture the identity of the Father is hidden, and must be revealed by Jesus. Luke 10:22 All things are delivered to me of my Father: and no man knoweth who the Son is, but the Father; and who the Father is, but the Son, and he to whom the Son will reveal him.Isaiah 44:24 Thus saith the LORD, thy redeemer, and he that formed thee from the womb, I am the LORD that maketh all things; that stretcheth forth the heavens alone; that spreadeth abroad the earth by myself; Isaiah 44:6 I am the first, and I am the last; and beside me there is no God. Revelation 1:17 I am the first and the last:Isaiah 9:6 For unto us a child is born, unto us a son is given: and the government shall be upon his shoulder: and his name shall be called Wonderful, Counsellor, The Mighty God, “The Everlasting Father,” The Prince of Peace.1 Timothy 3:16 God was manifest in the flesh.Ephesians 4:6 One God and Father of all. John 8:58 Before Abraham was, I am.John 12:44-45 Jesus cried and said, He that believeth on me, believeth not on me, but on him that sent me. And “He that seeth me seeth him that sent me,”. Ephesians 4:4 There is one body, and one Spirit,I am going to show you something very powerful read this closely. Who is the Almighty in the book of Revelation? Revelation 1:8 I am Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the ending, saith the Lord, which is, and which was, and which is to come, \"the Almighty\". ~~> 2 Corinthians 6:18 And will be a Father unto you, and ye shall be my sons and daughters, \"saith the Lord Almighty\". Jesus said he is our Father and we are his sons and daughters. Case closed truth prevailed. www.FatherJesus.com Jesus, is my God, Jesus, is my Father, Jesus, is my everything.
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  • I was a crack cocaine addict- Third Day\'s song \"Cry Out To Jesus\" and Micheal W. Smith\'s song \"Lord Have Mercy\" compelled me to throw myself on the mercy of Jesus and enter a strict Christian Rehab in Rockford Ill. Coming up in June I will have 4 yrs victory over drug...
    I was a crack cocaine addict- Third Day\'s song \"Cry Out To Jesus\" and Micheal W. Smith\'s song \"Lord Have Mercy\" compelled me to throw myself on the mercy of Jesus and enter a strict Christian Rehab in Rockford Ill. Coming up in June I will have 4 yrs victory over drug addiction, and this past year I was struggling with if I should finish college, and I became discouraged, thinking by drug abuse fried my brain cells, and I am 53 What could I hope to accomplish? I heard the song \"Here Goes\". It became my anthem for returning to school, and trusting Jesus to help me. I completed my first semester back in school, I took 15 credit hours and got 4 \"A\'s\" and 1\"B\". \" It\'s a long way down, but I\'m here right now!\" Maybe I\'m not typical of your audience, but when you come to Chattanooga to perform there will in attendance be a 53 yr old gray haired lady happily with her grandchildren, thanking God for the day I heard,\"Here Goes\" Praying for You
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  • OI . I just ran across your music. I want to give you a song I wrote when my best friends dad died called I Believe... no money needed Im retired at 47. I just would like it put out there by someone who would understand and put heart to it. thanks Steve ..7817999511
  • I know Bebo\'s brother personally. He\'s the best example I know of someone who is totally sold out to Christ and relies on Him to remain clean and sober. He stands as a becon of what is possible for anyone who struggles with addictions and decides finally to turn it over to the care and con...
    I know Bebo\'s brother personally. He\'s the best example I know of someone who is totally sold out to Christ and relies on Him to remain clean and sober. He stands as a becon of what is possible for anyone who struggles with addictions and decides finally to turn it over to the care and concern of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.
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  • My story... I\'m a man who struggles with always wanting to be the hero to my family, yet I often seem to fall short of my own standards. I have to beat back feelings of defeat--and sometimes worthlessness. God has blessed me with a wonderful wife who continually encourages me in truth. I\'...
    My story... I\'m a man who struggles with always wanting to be the hero to my family, yet I often seem to fall short of my own standards. I have to beat back feelings of defeat--and sometimes worthlessness. God has blessed me with a wonderful wife who continually encourages me in truth. I\'m thankful that God always breaks though with words of love and encouragement... and truth. I wish I could grasp, moment by moment, that God holds all I am. God loves all I am. Christ is the rock of my salvation, and God of my everything. Bebo, thank you for sharing your heart, struggles and triumphs through music. There is an uncommon authenticity in your songs. They have brought me through some troubled times and I thank God he has given you a willingness to be honestly vulnerable. I pray more people would be so vulnerable!
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  • Praise the Lord! As, I type this my husband Eddie is in a hotel room high off of Meth - I praise the Lord! As his wife, I will always pray, stand in the gap, intercede and warfare for my husband! God has great plans for us, and I know that my husband\'s deliverence will come and it will be like ...
    Praise the Lord! As, I type this my husband Eddie is in a hotel room high off of Meth - I praise the Lord! As his wife, I will always pray, stand in the gap, intercede and warfare for my husband! God has great plans for us, and I know that my husband\'s deliverence will come and it will be like the mountains shaking! But God is my everything,and I am excited and victorious! My Husband Edward, God\'s precious son will be set from bondage and no longer be addicted to drugs. God is my our Jehova Nissi!!
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  • yes. i too am a witness to this pain pill addiction. My husband has been an addict for two years n ow and still going...he has made many horrible mistakes, 2 suicide attempts,that hurt not only himself but the whole entire family as well..he has taken the first step into committing his life to Christ wh...
    yes. i too am a witness to this pain pill addiction. My husband has been an addict for two years n ow and still going...he has made many horrible mistakes, 2 suicide attempts,that hurt not only himself but the whole entire family as well..he has taken the first step into committing his life to Christ who he knows that gives im strength. He just could not keep up with the lying, the pain, the hurt that he put us through. reluctantly, he put himself in a program and has been in it for 1 1/2 months now, and has not bought a pill since. Am i proud?! YES! money stays in the bank. first of all it was because of a recent divorce and he didnt know how to cope so he turned to drugs, then a year later had back surgery then from there, it just went down but for you all who are struggling with this problem, dont push those who love you away.they will be the only ones there. for HE will never leave you.
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    abia una ves un nino jugando con una pelota serca de una planta nucliar derepente le callo una puta orca asesina k iso k la pelota caiga el un lago de mamadas readactivas .el nino agaro la pelota perro derepente sele aparesio um pinche ranchero zombie entonses el nino corrio y se estampo con una tele derrepente salio una nina fea k dijo kiero un bolillo entonses el nino dijo a k mierdas entonses bino un super herue k dijo yo te salvare y luego dijo aii k hasco gueles a flan entonses el nino kallo en una isla desierta luego bino lady gaga ise lo komio FIN
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  • i love my mom but she is apppppppppputttttta and has sex all days my dadd does not knowwwwww that she slleeeeepss wiht athoer guyssss by antony
  • i am listening to your song, the only hope. and you have no idea the wonders it is working for me. I am going through such a tough time in my life, and just to hear that song its so comforting to be reminded that god is there to catch me as im falling. i am overwhelmed with joy and hope right now and i ...
    i am listening to your song, the only hope. and you have no idea the wonders it is working for me. I am going through such a tough time in my life, and just to hear that song its so comforting to be reminded that god is there to catch me as im falling. i am overwhelmed with joy and hope right now and i understand what i need to do and where i need to go. This song has given me strength. and thank you so much for that. Thank you.
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  • I\'ve been struggling with loneliness since a few years back. It\'s been a really hard process to open up myself to other people and no matter how hard I try I can\'t seem to find the right friends. I don\'t feel loved by others, even by those that say they do love me. It\'s rea...
    I\'ve been struggling with loneliness since a few years back. It\'s been a really hard process to open up myself to other people and no matter how hard I try I can\'t seem to find the right friends. I don\'t feel loved by others, even by those that say they do love me. It\'s really hard and honestly don\'t know what to do.
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  • Bless you Bebo! Man, I needed to hear your story and your song. Thank you for that. I have struggled with lust and pornography off and on for a long time. It is difficult to describe the emotional and spiritual battles that I have fought up and down, and feeling my flesh rage against that spirit man ins...
    Bless you Bebo! Man, I needed to hear your story and your song. Thank you for that. I have struggled with lust and pornography off and on for a long time. It is difficult to describe the emotional and spiritual battles that I have fought up and down, and feeling my flesh rage against that spirit man inside me. I don\'t want to go back there ever again. Yet, I don\'t trust myself-I know that given the chance I am weak. I want my mind and my soul to be pure. Please pray for me that I would surrender what needs to surrender and that God would lead me in the best way.
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  • Broken am I down on my knee\'s begging for God to come rescue me! I write all the time and it is truley healing to allow the words of my heart to leap onto paper! I have been blessed to find your music, it seems that God has brought it to me! Every song was writin for me, for my healing, comfort,...
    Broken am I down on my knee\'s begging for God to come rescue me! I write all the time and it is truley healing to allow the words of my heart to leap onto paper! I have been blessed to find your music, it seems that God has brought it to me! Every song was writin for me, for my healing, comfort, compaionship and most of all (deepining my faith and trust and yes God loves me in each of these moments in which I brokenly grow to love him more and more though my heart feels so empty but it is filled with so much love! I thank you for yor inspirational music (It is my most favorite music and I have lovingly shared it with everyone) For my life is filled with such blessings and gifts! It is the brokeness which I give thanks also for as it is then I am filled and when I come to the cross on my knees broken knowing God will rescue me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) Many Blessings!
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  • I\'m 28 in Edmonton and have been struggling with homosexuality and pornography since grade 2. There are days when I have hope that I God will bring someone into my life to have a wife and family, but more than not, my days are overshadowed by \'god\' of reality, doubt, loneliness, and pr...
    I\'m 28 in Edmonton and have been struggling with homosexuality and pornography since grade 2. There are days when I have hope that I God will bring someone into my life to have a wife and family, but more than not, my days are overshadowed by \'god\' of reality, doubt, loneliness, and pride. There are also days where I know that I am placed with this crutch for a reason - to serve my creator, and to be a living testimony for all those who share my struggle, not to fight it, but to embrace it in the way God has designed my life, as opposed to the way the world tells me to embrace this. I get so many mixed messages left, right, and centre as to what to do, who I should follow, when most of the time, it is not the perspective of God, but the opinions and interpretations of man which are in control. Your music since I heard \"I Will Lift My Eyes\" has inspired me all these years through my struggles, and I thank Jesus that your life has been blessed in order that He may be glorified. Your heart to love without boundaries is reflected in your songs such as \"Britney\". In times when I truly feel that I am the only person on the planet who has my faith, your music has drawn out God\'s whispers to me to carry on and be a blessing and to uplift others in need; to take my eyes off myself, and to focus it on Christ, and His people. Your song \"Here Goes\" plays every time my phone rings, and reminds me of the promise to not let any man steal my dreams, but to allow Jesus to lead the way so that I can live life to the fullest. Listening to \"God of My Everything\" and how the story reflects your brother\'s struggle tells me that the temptations and trials we are all faced with will someday be an inspiration to others to give them hope in the midst of doubt. On the days where no one can ever speak the right words, the song allows me to open my heart and mind so that I can hear the still small voice. Instead of my past and what I\'ve done, I know that my Father in heaven is continuing to beckon me towards him like a parent encouraging their child to learn how to walk. I know that my Father does not care about what I\'ve done or who I am now, but he cares most whether I am willing to be transformed, as well as where I will be going. \"God of my hope, God of my need, God of my pain that no one else will ever see. God of my healing, God of my strength, God who has always and will forever reign, God of my everything... Here goes...\" Cheers
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  • I had wanted to say thank you, but seem a little lost for words after reading all the testimonies. I am a single mom of five boys. Like so many others God has brought the most amazing beautiful gifts out of the hugest struggles. First, to thank you - Bebo & Gabe, the past several weeks (maybe ye...
    I had wanted to say thank you, but seem a little lost for words after reading all the testimonies. I am a single mom of five boys. Like so many others God has brought the most amazing beautiful gifts out of the hugest struggles. First, to thank you - Bebo & Gabe, the past several weeks (maybe years :) have been so difficult - sometimes that\'s just how it is. I am also in charge of Children\'s Church and really had nothing left to give. And though I took my boys to Portland(1 1/2 hr south) and your concert was the opposite direction - an 1 1/2 hr north I really felt like I should go. Your music was so ministering!! I felt like God was singing me a lullabye of comfort - that I soo needed. When worshiping I saw a picture as if God was overflowing water into your cup, which overflowed into my cup, which enabled me to give to all the children God calls me to pour love on. Thank you. And to all of those who shared these testimonies...you are awesome and amazing!! The huge things you struggle with that are hard to imagine. I pray you shine bright and God gives you freedom from your pasts...God is always on His throne -always! I married into an abusive, addictive family and I saw how broken to the depths a person can be. But mostly the sadness of broken hope. God is close to the brokenhearted. And I think that when you go through the deepest struggles and choose to draw near to God, you will know God\'s presence in an amazingly deep way.
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  • I\'m in my early 40\'s and I have struggled with my faith in God since I was a teenager. As a result, and as is so often the case, my life has largely been a series of missteps and regrets. I\'m at a place now in my life where I\'m more determined to seek God and grow in my underst...
    I\'m in my early 40\'s and I have struggled with my faith in God since I was a teenager. As a result, and as is so often the case, my life has largely been a series of missteps and regrets. I\'m at a place now in my life where I\'m more determined to seek God and grow in my understanding of His word and will for my life than I\'ve ever been. But I continue to struggle with the nagging doubts of what I truly believe where my faith is concerned on a regular basis. I also struggle with regret on a regular basis. The regrets of choices made early on in my marriage that have forever changed the dynamic between my wife and I. Things are good between us for the most part now. We have two healthy boys and we\'ve come a long way over the past year or two. But the damage done to our marriage on my behalf still lingers. I was unfaithful to my wife, on more than one occasion. While she knows enough to know that I was unfaithful, she doesn\'t know the specifics or how often. I struggle greatly with whether or not I should confess to her all there is to know or if what she knows is enough. She\'s communicated her forgiveness to me before and my concern is that my revealing to her the sordid details of my affairs would only do more harm to our marriage. I\'m afraid of losing my family. In addition to my unfaithfulness, I have also struggled with an addiction to alcohol during my marriage as well. I\'ve been sober for a year or so, and thanks to God alcohol doesn\'t have the same power over me as it once did, But my addiction to alcohol and the negative impact it had on my family is yet another example of my failures as a husband and a father. And I haven\'t even mentioned an addiction to pornography that was a part of my life almost daily for several years. Though I no longer watch porn per say, like most men, my battle with my flesh is virtually never ending. How do I get over the mistakes of my past? How do I forgive myself? Why do question whether or not God has forgiven me? Why do question what I believe where God is concerned?? How can I be so much better off in virtually every area of my life in comparison to where I\'ve been in the past and yet still feel disconnected from God and doubt His love for ME?????
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  • I am a backslid Christian that has recently came around in coming back to the Lord. I have many talents, dreams, and a rather unique life story. I am now looking for people to simply keep me encouraged. I thank you for reaching out to others, even in their darkest points. It does truly speak to the hear...
    I am a backslid Christian that has recently came around in coming back to the Lord. I have many talents, dreams, and a rather unique life story. I am now looking for people to simply keep me encouraged. I thank you for reaching out to others, even in their darkest points. It does truly speak to the heart in the long run, and well .. here I am. Just as I am. Thank you for your prayers and thank you for blessing us with the gift of music. In His grace, Jason Jack Flash @JasonJackFlash on Twitter Bless you !
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  • i just cant explain bt listening to bebo\'s songs has brought ma life back
  • I love the song, Oh lord my God I cry out because I identify with the song I cry out to Jesus alot because I have alot of emotional pain from years of emotional abuse and domestic violence I witnessed growing up and my mother was murdered and the anger that fester in me that only God can take. I curren...
    I love the song, Oh lord my God I cry out because I identify with the song I cry out to Jesus alot because I have alot of emotional pain from years of emotional abuse and domestic violence I witnessed growing up and my mother was murdered and the anger that fester in me that only God can take. I currently work at the Salvation Army Adult Rehabilitation Center in Portland Oregon and was wondering if you could come and sing some songs and bring your brother to give his testimony. It is a recovery from drug and alcohol center and they would love for you to come. It is located at 6855 NE 82nd Ave Portland Oregon and the number is 971-230-5300. To schedule you can contact Major Philips.
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  • I was twice a lesbian lover. I thought that was alright. I felt loved and needed and provided with much attention. Until such time, I realized I was always in hiding... one, because I was in a country that gay-relationships are not permitted. secondly, I felt so tired with the lifestyle I chose. I ...
    I was twice a lesbian lover. I thought that was alright. I felt loved and needed and provided with much attention. Until such time, I realized I was always in hiding... one, because I was in a country that gay-relationships are not permitted. secondly, I felt so tired with the lifestyle I chose. I cried out to the Lord,,, and He heard my cries!!! I am now alone but not lonely. I feel so free. I never felt this loved before by people in the church, by my family, by my friends. I thank the God of my everything... He is more than enough for me... I love Jesus so much. I want more of Him in my life. I hope this testimony can help somebody who can relate. God bless you.
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  • I was living my life as a regular college kid, not really thinking about my actions - just living life. I met a friend who I started talking about God with because I knew she was Christian, I told her I used to be such a faithful person when I was younger, but now I felt like I didn\'t belong anywh...
    I was living my life as a regular college kid, not really thinking about my actions - just living life. I met a friend who I started talking about God with because I knew she was Christian, I told her I used to be such a faithful person when I was younger, but now I felt like I didn\'t belong anywhere in a religious sense - I thought people in a church would judge me because of my piercings, crazy hair, and tattoos. She told me that wasn\'t true and encouraged me to come with her to a Leeland concert at a local church. I was skeptical, but I went. I\'m so glad I went that night [November 7th, 2010]. That night the lyrics spoke to me in a way I never thought song lyrics could, and I accepted Jesus into my heart and was saved. In March, I was baptized at that very same church, my life hasn\'t been the same since.
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  • I struggled with addiction to alcohol for many years, as I grew up in a home with both parents who couldn\'t do ANYTHING without alcohol.. I\'m 39 and I have been sober October will be two years. I went to treatment in February 2009 and heard the audible voice of God as I was sitting in the ch...
    I struggled with addiction to alcohol for many years, as I grew up in a home with both parents who couldn\'t do ANYTHING without alcohol.. I\'m 39 and I have been sober October will be two years. I went to treatment in February 2009 and heard the audible voice of God as I was sitting in the chapel after classes one evening, tears rolling down my face at every tick of the clock. God spoke to me saying, \"My beloved daughter this is not about a religion it\'s about a relationship!\" The counselors come in to work the next day and as I was walking down the hall to the nurses station they stopped and stared at me and asked me, \"What happen to you?, you sure have a glow around you.\" and just coming out of my mouth I said, \"I don\'t know what happen I was sitting in the chapel last night and I heard this voice say my beloved daughter this is not about a religion it\'s about a relationship and I certainly don\'t feel like I am glowing!!\" From that point on God has healed and delivered me from MANY hurts, pains, and sorrows. The key, we have to ALLOW Him to consume every aspect of our being, we have to be at the absolute end of ourselves and as I have seen in my own family some people just don\'t make it there, and this is the enemy prowling around seeking whom he can destroy and kill. Knowing who I am in my Father and not as the world sees me, knowing that He will never leave me nor forsake me and that He has a plan for my life in Him there is not a day goes by that when I wake up in the morning and my chest is rising up and down that it is His will, as I put one foot in front of the other, it is His will as I go about my Fathers will, IT IS HIS WILL. Acts 17:26-29 clearly tells us that He has preappointed times and boundaries for our dwellings, and our being is only because of Him. The first step is easy it\'s continuing to do His will that as Romans 4:3-5 says knowing that tribulation produces perseverance, and perseverance, character, and character hope and hope does not disappoint because the LOVE of God has been POURED in our hearts! Praise is to Him who is the God of salvation!
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  • I am a 54 y/o Christian man that struggles with addiction and chronic pain. Some days I am into oblivion due to my pain;other days I feel close to Jesus. I would ask you to pray for me.....and I do really appreciate the cd Ocean............it is just what God ordered at this moment of my life. I am terr...
    I am a 54 y/o Christian man that struggles with addiction and chronic pain. Some days I am into oblivion due to my pain;other days I feel close to Jesus. I would ask you to pray for me.....and I do really appreciate the cd Ocean............it is just what God ordered at this moment of my life. I am terrified of the man I have become.......I do not want to hide behind my addiction wall anymore. It is a long haul for me to be sure. Thank you and God bless you all!!!!!
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  • IThis is my most favorite song, because it speaks to me where I am now. I did not know the reason until I rad why you wrote the song. I is about me. Thank you for sing and praying for me
  • Yes, be encouraged in faith, by faith, and through faith of a loving Father, a forgiving Father, Holy and mighty and so ready to do battle for His children, whom He calls by name. My everything is shame and feeling of no worth as a woman, fear of failure. It\'s been there since I was a child, dev...
    Yes, be encouraged in faith, by faith, and through faith of a loving Father, a forgiving Father, Holy and mighty and so ready to do battle for His children, whom He calls by name. My everything is shame and feeling of no worth as a woman, fear of failure. It\'s been there since I was a child, developed through my teens and into adult life. And it was grown through an awful awful childhood at the hands of a cruel earthly father. The depths of his abuse are unfathomable by most people. I have glimpses of this worthlessness through the heavy cover of faith in God that He has created me to be exactly as He intends for a purpose that is far greater than any doubt or failure or fear or physical or emotional hurt that I experience at times. Each time I feel that way I toss it over to Jesus and just ask Him to create refreshed and renewed joy in Him. And this works, each time because he is a faithful loving God. It\'s tough, because the enemy will use any little thing to try to steal us away from God. God is just so much greater, and we are greater than our \'everything\' when we commit to \"Lord, You are God of my everything, I choose You\" Be encouraged, brothers and sisters, that as you give your everything to God He will create a new layer in your character. He will reform and refresh your spirit, your heart, with His love...because He also finds great joy in those He calls by name. Nothing is too much for Him, or too dirty, or too large. Faith the size of a mustard seed can move a mountain...what is your mountain?
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  • Last night I decided my life was worthless and wanted to end my 4 year battle with Oxycontin. I even started preparing my kids to live without me as sick as it sounds. I have followed God all my life and believe fully, yet a broken back brought this demon of a drug into my life. I have so much nerve dam...
    Last night I decided my life was worthless and wanted to end my 4 year battle with Oxycontin. I even started preparing my kids to live without me as sick as it sounds. I have followed God all my life and believe fully, yet a broken back brought this demon of a drug into my life. I have so much nerve damage I pass out from pain that they can\'t stop without injections and narcotics. Medical reasons yes, but addicted - horribly. As Bebo sings I suffer a pain that no one else will ever see, and I look forward to the day God gives me a new body in heaven, but my life is not mine to end. A friend found this song and story just in time and it changed my perspective. I will chose to suffer, but I will give up my shame of addiction and seek alternatives so that I can have freedom without death. Thank you Bebo and your brother for having the courage to share the story despite the risk of stigma, you have kept my children\'s father where he belongs, on this earth (for now) with them, worshipping God and giving thanks.
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  • I seem to struggle with lust and sexual temptations. Like a few other people have said sometimes I feel like I might be beating it but I fall back into the same traps as before. I pray that God will help me get through this and that I am able to rely on Him to be my strength. I also struggle with money ...
    I seem to struggle with lust and sexual temptations. Like a few other people have said sometimes I feel like I might be beating it but I fall back into the same traps as before. I pray that God will help me get through this and that I am able to rely on Him to be my strength. I also struggle with money or tithing. I need to be able to trust God that he will meet my needs. I thank everyone that has opened up about their issues. they have given me the courage to open up with things that i have been struggleing with.
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  • Recently, I have fought with doubt, and it seems the closer I try to draw to God, the stronger that doubt feels. I have struggled with the reoccurring problem of lust, and that makes everything worse. It\'s so hard to believe that God wants even those terrible parts of me. Even after He has blesse...
    Recently, I have fought with doubt, and it seems the closer I try to draw to God, the stronger that doubt feels. I have struggled with the reoccurring problem of lust, and that makes everything worse. It\'s so hard to believe that God wants even those terrible parts of me. Even after He has blessed me beyond belief, and shown me His mercy, and answered even the tiniest prayer, I still manage to doubt. How can He not get tired of hearing me apologize, time after time, when I fall from the upright? You\'re music has been a constant blessing to me. Even in the midst of my suffering, God has used your songs to uplift and encourage me, time after time, through every stumbling block in my way, and every baby step I take toward him.
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  • Bebo, thank you for sharing your heart and story and music. Your realness and faith and open questioning are a huge encouragement to me--oftentimes you put into words and music what I wish I could! Thank you.
  • Unbelievable...About a month ago I came across your music on youtube. I watched and listened to your music videos and I fell in love with your voice and words. Immediately I bought your CD\'s and I have played them over and over on my commute to work. For years I struggled with an alcohol addiction...
    Unbelievable...About a month ago I came across your music on youtube. I watched and listened to your music videos and I fell in love with your voice and words. Immediately I bought your CD\'s and I have played them over and over on my commute to work. For years I struggled with an alcohol addiction. Nobody in this world could make me quit. Not even when I gave birth to my beautiful baby boy. I was selfish and full of self pity. I just couldn\'t understand why I was put on this earth when I was so unloveable. I felt ugly inside and out. I knew of God, I believed in God but I didn\'t know God. I was angry at him for having given me everything that he had because I felt like he had given me nothing but a life of let downs. 3 years ago I woke up one morning and knew it was finally time. It was time to get sober, invest in my son 100% and to my surprise find God. I turned my life over to him. During the last 3 years I have still struggled with my will and God\'s will. I trust him but I still want to trust myself too. The last 6 months I have been run down, seeing doctor after doctor trying to find out the cause of some health issues. I had made a decision to just give up. I had decided that being sober was no longer worth it. I have been begging God to just show me the way, to show me what he wants for me because I can\'t do this anymore...then I just came to this site and read the story of your brother and your faith in God....God just answered me right here.
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  • i pulled my car over this morning with tears in my eyes listening to you and Rich Mullins singing \"Sometime by Step.\" I cannot thank you enough for being with me in Praise! I miss rich very much... peace, john
  • I recently spent three weeks away from my husband and children, getting help from a chronic pain clinic in Cleveland as I dealt with both physical pain that I will always have as well as my own addiction to narcotics. It was both a terrifying time for me and a revealing one. I was really and truly alon...
    I recently spent three weeks away from my husband and children, getting help from a chronic pain clinic in Cleveland as I dealt with both physical pain that I will always have as well as my own addiction to narcotics. It was both a terrifying time for me and a revealing one. I was really and truly alone for the first time in my life as I lived out of a tiny hotel room for 21 days and fought to free myself from old habits and fears. For hours I would pace in that little box of a room, struggling with withdrawal and spiritual uncertainty. I spent even more hours on my knees seeking the peace that I knew God could grant me if only I could truly trust Him enough to give everything over to Him and be free. Bebo, it was your music that was the backdrop to my wrestling with God over those three weeks. Specifically Between The Dreaming And The Coming True and your most recent album. I was filled with overwhelming shame at having to put my two young daughters through the fear of having their Mommy go away, and the gut wrenching awareness of the worry and stress I brought to my husband. Towards then end of those weeks I finally came to realize that God already knows what is in the darkest parts of me and was just waiting for me to aknowledge that those parts, too, are His. I cried tears of relief and joy when I accepted that, just as I was in that moment - broken, bowed down and afraid - I was still His creation and that His heart was breaking as my whole being did. Kneeling there on the floor of that hotel room I allowed my Father to gather my broken pieces, hemm me in and grant me peace. He truly is \"....the God of my everything\". Thank you for the music you share with us. It really did serve as a sort of light to help me find my way back to the One who was waiting there for me to reach out to Him. The physical pain that I have is still there and the emotional struggles that come with recovery will never go away...but that\'s okay, because those too are His. Your brother remains in my prayers as he walks his road of recovery. Peace, Marcy
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  • HI Bebo, I was first introduced to your music in 1998 when I attend young like camp while in high school. I am from Jefferson city mo. I just revisited your music again tonight. i have a feeling I am on the brink of a big life adventure. I am excited and scared at the same time. I think its funny that...
    HI Bebo, I was first introduced to your music in 1998 when I attend young like camp while in high school. I am from Jefferson city mo. I just revisited your music again tonight. i have a feeling I am on the brink of a big life adventure. I am excited and scared at the same time. I think its funny that I thought of you and your music. But here I am I. I must have felt safe and content at the time in my life when I listened to your music, maybe that is why I turn back to you when I am on the brink of change. I hope you and your family are well. I was a young, teenage when I listened to your your music. Now I am 30 and on my own life adventure and here I am looking for guidance from you music once again. I am not a very religious person, but I know I left fulfilled when I was listener to your words when I was first introduced to your music. Thank you and wish me luck, Carly Marriott
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  • I was a full-blown crack addict for 5 years. I hurt everyone that I knew. I tried everything--programs, NA meetings, in-patient and out-patient care, but to no avail. One morning I cried out that if there really was a God, if Jesus was really real, then he would have to save me because I couldn\'...
    I was a full-blown crack addict for 5 years. I hurt everyone that I knew. I tried everything--programs, NA meetings, in-patient and out-patient care, but to no avail. One morning I cried out that if there really was a God, if Jesus was really real, then he would have to save me because I couldn\'t save myself. I was delivered! That was April 15, 1995. I\'ve been clean since that day. Of course, the journey since the delivery has been to maintain my freedom through daily prayer and surrender to God. This is my song! Thanks, Bebo, for giving this gift to us!
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  • Marino Emanuel Tschirren \"Marino Emanuel\" (born February 3, 1987) is a Swiss Contemporary Christian Musician, singer-songwriter, composer, and actor. Early life Marino Emanuel was born on February 3, 1987 in Bern, Switzerland to Regula and Markus Tschirren. His father is a chemist and his ...
    Marino Emanuel Tschirren \"Marino Emanuel\" (born February 3, 1987) is a Swiss Contemporary Christian Musician, singer-songwriter, composer, and actor. Early life Marino Emanuel was born on February 3, 1987 in Bern, Switzerland to Regula and Markus Tschirren. His father is a chemist and his mother is a seamstress. Both grew up in Christian faith. His only and older brother, Romano, is a Christian too. Marino received his first guitar from his parents at the age of seven. He first learned how to play the guitar by playing along side some rock records. After that, he went to a Music school in Bern and learned to play the guitar. As a child he developed his love for music through his church. Because of this incident he sang in a Church band. When Marino got older, he also played with various local bands around Bern. He became involved in Bible study and found an older friend who shared his Religious faith. After completing High school in 2004, Marino started an apprenticeship as an multimedia electronics and graduated in 2007. After the apprenticeship, Marino began to work in a local Music store. Personal life In one day, at the age of two, he got terribly high fever and severe earache. As the fever did not drop despite medical, Marino must be brought in the emergency room. Specialists had to operate immediately! The chances of survival were low. But by some miracle managed the difficult operation and Marino survived the disease without sequelae. The parents were deeply grateful that God answered their prayers and fulfilled their requests. Marino made his second experience with God in the cancer diagnosis of his mother. The whole family was deeply saddened and shocked. But they did not give up and prayed incessantly for healing. Finally she was completely healed without chemotherapy and radiation. His recent experience of God is the salvation of the nicotine addiction. After many failed attempts, Marino put the matter in God\'s hands. God has seen him suffer and freed him from slavery. Marino is now finally, after 7 years, a happy non-smoker. After all these impressive experience of God, finally he decided to live his life by walking with God and praise him with songs. Listen to the NEW Song \"born from above\" by Marino Emanuel :: http://on.fb.me/jBPwXA Go, Listen and \"Like\" his page too! Support an Independent Christian Musician and help him spread the world about Jesus Christ! Be blessed!
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  • I too was in bondage to pills. It all started with a back injury and by the end of it I was taking 420 pills a month. I would pray for God to deliver me but the pain of withdrawals kept me in prison. I taught the bible on Sundays and wanted to serve God but was unable to shake the chains. You can see my...
    I too was in bondage to pills. It all started with a back injury and by the end of it I was taking 420 pills a month. I would pray for God to deliver me but the pain of withdrawals kept me in prison. I taught the bible on Sundays and wanted to serve God but was unable to shake the chains. You can see my testimony at the link included. Bebo, thanks for the song and the testimony. Amen and Amen. http://www.ustream.tv/recorded/8360248/highlight/89642
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  • My name is Lance Johnson. I am 26. I am a believer in Christ. I had a father who commit ed suicide and a mother who was a drug addict. I bounced around. Lucky i had my godfather who instilled Christ in my life at a young age. I grew up to be a lost lonely drug addict. Two years ago i entered a Christ c...
    My name is Lance Johnson. I am 26. I am a believer in Christ. I had a father who commit ed suicide and a mother who was a drug addict. I bounced around. Lucky i had my godfather who instilled Christ in my life at a young age. I grew up to be a lost lonely drug addict. Two years ago i entered a Christ centered rehab and he saved me . I live for the Lord today...With many struggles left but I know I will get through them with him...
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  • Christ is TRULY everything!!! I am 28 years old. Today, I can say that I have been walking in freedom for over 3 years! I had been addicted to pornography for over 13 years until Jesus Christ broke my chains. I was exposed at an early age, before I understood anything about sexuality. I grew up in t...
    Christ is TRULY everything!!! I am 28 years old. Today, I can say that I have been walking in freedom for over 3 years! I had been addicted to pornography for over 13 years until Jesus Christ broke my chains. I was exposed at an early age, before I understood anything about sexuality. I grew up in the church, always under the burden of shame and guilt that sin always brings. I was soundly saved when I was 13 and remember the day when I was shocked to discover that Jesus really meant what He said \"If you look with lust, you commit adultery in your heart...\" I grew up in a church that ignored that passage entirely. I was stunned. But that\'s when the process of breaking down this idol began. Even though I heard the true Gospel preached, I struggled for years against the sin of lust. However, like nothing else, God worked mightily in me through a website called SettingCaptivesFree(dot)com - PLEASE CHECK THEM OUT if you are struggling with ANY kind of addiction! Sin is like fungus, it grows in the dark! But when exposed to the light, it shrivels up and dies! There is NO light like the light of the Son, Jesus Christ! And if the Son will make you free, you will be free indeed!!
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  • Thank you so much for your tenderness and sharing. There is so much power in our stories!!! Although my story is different, HIS redemption is the same!!!! Thank you so much, P.S.\"Drifting\" is my story too!!!! Thank you for sharing. My He go with you and protect you as you go...
  • After being a sober, recovering drug addict for 6 years now, I feel like I\'m starting to break down. Spiritually, physically, emotionally, financialally, I feel like I\'m losing my faith. But I know that the same God that brought me out of the darkness is the same God who gave up a part of Hi...
    After being a sober, recovering drug addict for 6 years now, I feel like I\'m starting to break down. Spiritually, physically, emotionally, financialally, I feel like I\'m losing my faith. But I know that the same God that brought me out of the darkness is the same God who gave up a part of Himself so that I may be free. He didn\'t give up on me when I needed Him so I won\'t give up on Him now. Thanks Bebo for your music and God bless.
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  • Have a copy of bebo normans \"Ten Thousand Days also a CD Big Blue Sky T Shit and Photo all Signed Except CD___Make me an offer on these items 912-772-5878 or contact me via. E-Mail _ dr1know@comcast.net if calling ask for Andy
  • I have struggled with alcohol since I can remember, like 16 really.I lost my mom at that time, and it seemed to be the one thing that made me feel pleasure, yet numb to pain.I learned that, I believed, alcohol was my best friend, lover, confidant, all I needed.I had been in several car accidents, nearly...
    I have struggled with alcohol since I can remember, like 16 really.I lost my mom at that time, and it seemed to be the one thing that made me feel pleasure, yet numb to pain.I learned that, I believed, alcohol was my best friend, lover, confidant, all I needed.I had been in several car accidents, nearly died, lost friends, family, but reallly, did not care, alcohol and me were best buds.As I grew, got married, and had children, for awhile, I felt so much joy, I thought I would never go back, but it is cunning, and, I was right back, worse than ever.My kids have seen me past out, taken to the hospital, in treatment, and I would get the whole AA treatment mind going, and do ok.Then, I decided, ok, I will quit the alcohol, and ask doctors for pills.Though I do get panic attacks, I never used them to just help the attacks, I got high, and addicted to Zanax.I had to be hospitalized to kick that. Once again, I did ok, I recieved Jesus as my Lord and Savior and fully believed in Him.But, as usually, it was back. I began using Klonipin and alcohol, my poor kids and husband suffered through some horrific days and nights. But I still believed in my Savior, the problem was, I thought He was ashamed of me, and through with me, which of course was a lie straight from the devil, but I did.Two years ago, because of my alcohol abuse, and incarceration for DUI\'s, felony eluding, etc, I lost custody and parental rights of my 5 kids, well, one was 18, so, I can see him, and now my oldest daughter who is older, but my 15, 10, and 7 year old, I cannot see.I was homeless at one point while my husband and I were not together, and even though I lost my home, job, family, I still used.And used people.I would either end up in detox or jail, had an escape charge, and would be found by people passed out in alley ways.Today, 2 years later, do I still struggle, yes, never thought God could love me again, but, this song has helped me, I know He loves me, and I know when I fall, I just reach out my hand, and He picks me back up again.It is not easy, but I know staying sober will be worth it. My husband is now back with me, and showed me this song, he has been a blessing I canot even begin to describe. Thanks for the song, the story.God Of My Everything. All things are possible through Christ our Lord.
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  • I didn\'t know Bebo from Adam back in November 2010, in fact, as I was waiting for the doors to open on a show in Obi,NY,I even refered to Bebo as Norman Bebo! Then I heard you sing. Shortly after that I was in love w/ the Ocean Cd, with God of My Everything as my favorite favorite! Couldn\'...
    I didn\'t know Bebo from Adam back in November 2010, in fact, as I was waiting for the doors to open on a show in Obi,NY,I even refered to Bebo as Norman Bebo! Then I heard you sing. Shortly after that I was in love w/ the Ocean Cd, with God of My Everything as my favorite favorite! Couldn\'t put a finger on why this song spoke to me so much until I read about your brother on this site. I too struggle daily w/ addiction, and have been sober since November 7, 2010. Yeah, it was hard at first to imagine laying out all my cards before Him, and still being loved, but now I know that He does love us as we are. Sunday July 31, I sang this beautiful song at church. I did it for me, your brother and for the God of our pain that no one else will ever see! Thank you Bebo and Jason for writing such a wonderful song!
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  • after hearing your brothers story I wrote this poem. I struggle too after the death of my seven year old son. Thanks for all you do. “Which Way?” By Scott Newport Living on the edge Doesn’t seem to matter Anymore My prayer for Safety Dismissed by My worth Climbing To the Scary places Not so sc...
    after hearing your brothers story I wrote this poem. I struggle too after the death of my seven year old son. Thanks for all you do. “Which Way?” By Scott Newport Living on the edge Doesn’t seem to matter Anymore My prayer for Safety Dismissed by My worth Climbing To the Scary places Not so scary The hands Holding the Nets Summoned away Looking toward The Heaven A distant Memory The weight Of myself Shuts the door To the sky Living on the edge Across the valley The next cliff A cavern away Not ready to jump Yet Knowing the Way Is still watching
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  • WOW what an inspiration!! i cant say im gonna tell my story this very moment because you can say im not ready yet, however, thank you for giving me and everyone else the opportunity to let go of our deep dark mistakes.. when i feel ready i will share and i know i will feel a wait has been lifted up! tha...
    WOW what an inspiration!! i cant say im gonna tell my story this very moment because you can say im not ready yet, however, thank you for giving me and everyone else the opportunity to let go of our deep dark mistakes.. when i feel ready i will share and i know i will feel a wait has been lifted up! thank you for considering all of us! God bless
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  • All of you that share your bravery and your love for God, you have my prayers. I too have been struggling with alcohol, lust, jealousy, doubt, many others. I have been doing my best for only 3 days since I have been saved again. This is the truth of the Lord, He wants us to love Him so that we can learn...
    All of you that share your bravery and your love for God, you have my prayers. I too have been struggling with alcohol, lust, jealousy, doubt, many others. I have been doing my best for only 3 days since I have been saved again. This is the truth of the Lord, He wants us to love Him so that we can learn how to love ourselves and one another. I wasn\'t loving myself, I thought that getting drunk and sleeping with random men..by getting their approval that I would be more happy with myself. Feel beautiful for once, or to feel excepted as just me. So many people and guys tell me that Im more fun when drunk,..but then they don\'t love the real me. They only like the side with no respect to myself and that shows they don\'t hold respect for me either. Anyone that tells you that,..THINK TWICE. That took many years for me to finally see this truth and those of you that struggle I will always pray that you will see it too. Its certainly NOT easy, I won\'t lie. I am always feeling like letting GO of my promise to God and doing it all again,..but then I would become that negative energy once again. I have a small daughter of only 3yrs and she\'s the best blessing I could\'ve ever asked for and it has been my sole duty as her loving mother to give her whats best. However I wasn\'t doing it best. Therefore I have completely changed and don\'t know how to explain it,..everything I do now is to please the Lord Almighty and to seek his will for the plan that has been laid out for me by Him. It has gotten so much more clearer ever since, and that in itself is eternally extrordinary.
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  • Growing up with a large family I always felt that I was loved and taken care of. But eventually a family member abused that trust and took advantage of me when I was only 8 yrs old. I went to doctors, to make sure I didn\'t have anything, I went to doctors for talking about my feelings,..and someho...
    Growing up with a large family I always felt that I was loved and taken care of. But eventually a family member abused that trust and took advantage of me when I was only 8 yrs old. I went to doctors, to make sure I didn\'t have anything, I went to doctors for talking about my feelings,..and somehow I blocked all of it out..most of it. ..Later down the road of my life my mother and I were talking and we talked about it unplanned. She gave me information that I will share..Im not scared to because its something that explains why I am they person I am today. ..I always thought that I was just molested but then she told me with tears running down her face that it was more than that. The blocked out parts of my past, were the most important, when the moment my innocence was stolen from me at 8 yrs old. Surely after that I also came across a guy I thought was someone I could trust too, he ended up druging and raping two very special people that were and are still very important individuals. It tore me apart. I still today struggle with \"triggers\". A random sign, or someone joking about rape or molestation, or anything that reminds me of the horror,..always haunting me. I don\'t blame myself for any of it...not anymore. I used to. Wondering ...if I just let him have me then she and her would still be saved. They would\'ve been spared. However that\'s not always the case, I could\'ve and he still probably would have done it anyways. So ...........these hardest moments I have shared..you can still be haunted even if you forgave them and put it in the past. I want the best for both of them, and I still pray for both of the men that ruined most of my childhood. But ..todays a new day,..I have a beautiful daughter who\'s the light of my life and soul after the Lord. I as a knowledged mother of such a past,..will know the better ways to help her understand the negative from the positive energies as best as I can. I can\'t blame myself forever. And neither can any of you that have been going through the same horrid memories of current life. I pray for all of you in the world everyday or as often as I can..because soon we will be walking with the Lord when Jesus comes back for his final return. The signs are there..and it will be beautiful to finally meet those of you that have too found the Light of He. -Melinda-
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  • There are only certain songs that touchmy heart enough for me to want to play and sing them in worship. As worship leader I have reign over what songs we sing. If they don\'t touch me deep, we don\'t sing em. This one hit the spot whenI heard you on the radio driving home one night. I just hav...
    There are only certain songs that touchmy heart enough for me to want to play and sing them in worship. As worship leader I have reign over what songs we sing. If they don\'t touch me deep, we don\'t sing em. This one hit the spot whenI heard you on the radio driving home one night. I just have to sing and play it, Bebo. I can get the words on ccli but not the chords, I have to play it and want to talk about it at worship practice tonight. Can you tell me where to get the chords? God is awesome! Bless you heaps and I can\'t wait to get the album. Ps P
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  • REALLY WANT TO THANK YOU FOR YOUR GIFT OF MUSIC TO US... A GIFT THAT SO MANY OF US CAN APPRECIATE. YOUR WORDS ARE TRULY HONEST AND OPEN. MANY MANY THANKS
  • My story is lengthy, but I will do my best to keep it short and to the point... but most importantly... honest. I had a sexual addiction my entire life. Through a group (Celebrate Recovery) I kept hearing the inspired words of God through other men and woman. They spoke of the transformations that ha...
    My story is lengthy, but I will do my best to keep it short and to the point... but most importantly... honest. I had a sexual addiction my entire life. Through a group (Celebrate Recovery) I kept hearing the inspired words of God through other men and woman. They spoke of the transformations that had come to them and the hope that they had received, One evening @ C.R God broke through my broken spirit of fear... Fear that he could not do the same in me and for me. My thoughts were my entire life... I\'ve had this addiction my entire life... I can never beat it... I had prayed for years and years and years... God show me... help me. But, as hard as I tried to give God my repetitive sin... I would once again fail. In my own eyes, I was nothing but a religious man walking around in a long robe quoting scripture... (Jesus days). At last I broke the cycle and went to a brother... I made a confession and started down my road of living in the dry desert. Through all of this... I was taken out of fellowship with many, taken out of leadership and many now look at me as tho I am nothing but trash. Bebo, the good news is even in this heart ache of having so many turning their back on me... God gave me hope and inspired me to learn to love even when I feel so broken and ashamed. Gods grace and mercy can reach beyond bitterness and resentment. God\'s mercy and love can be experienced into the storm ... through the storm and exiting the storm. This has been just about a year ago that my journey began. But I thank God for this journey. I\'m not blind... I know many others have hidden sins... tucked away. This is hopefully a story that will help others to make a step into a dry and barren place. God will show up in this place and you will find rest in this place. God is always present in my desert experiences.
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  • What a beautiful song! I\'ve had so many roadblocks and hurtful moments in my life which has never been easy. It started out with meningitus as a very young age and nothing has never been easy for me although I raised my daughter by myself for years and have served the children in my community for ...
    What a beautiful song! I\'ve had so many roadblocks and hurtful moments in my life which has never been easy. It started out with meningitus as a very young age and nothing has never been easy for me although I raised my daughter by myself for years and have served the children in my community for the Lord. The devil always wants to attack and I\'ve gotten weary so many times over the years that I can\'t wait to get to heaven someday and see God in his great glory where there will be no more tears or heartaches or loneliness. It seems that no matter how much you serve or give God, people will never truly appreciate it, but God always will (Matthew 6:19-21). The only reason that I can go on from day to day is because of the strength that God gives me! When I hear and sing this song, I get tears in my eyes! Thank you Bebo for this heart touching song!
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  • I love the song. Looking for tour information, coming anywhere close to Southeast Iowa?
  • hi Bebo and Gabe first of all i want to say thanks for coming to Peoria,Illinois and giving us that awesome concert tonight and for writing this song.It has helped me deal with a lot of problems in my life. I love all of your songs and i hope that you will come back to sing for us again. I really enjoy...
    hi Bebo and Gabe first of all i want to say thanks for coming to Peoria,Illinois and giving us that awesome concert tonight and for writing this song.It has helped me deal with a lot of problems in my life. I love all of your songs and i hope that you will come back to sing for us again. I really enjoyed the concert and hearing you sing.BTW thanks for signing my forehead and paper. love Ashley
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  • Bebo I would like to start by saying how much your music has inspired me and touch the lives of many people world wide. I first heard your music while in Nigeria, West Africa on a mission trip so know you are touching many world wide! Second I would like to share with you what an amazing brother you hav...
    Bebo I would like to start by saying how much your music has inspired me and touch the lives of many people world wide. I first heard your music while in Nigeria, West Africa on a mission trip so know you are touching many world wide! Second I would like to share with you what an amazing brother you have in Chris. I am a recovering drug addict that on Sept. 15th will have 2 yrs of sobriety. This milestone would not have been possible without a loving,forgiving,merciful God and also your brother being an amazing vessel! I was in a treatment facility in south GA ,and while there attended a recovery meeting in Tifton, Ga every Thursday nite where I had the opportunity to form a relationship with Chris as well as other facilitators in the Celebrate Recovery Meeting there. Just thought you might like to know the impact \"big sexy\" aka \"Chris\" has had on my life and I\'m sure the lives of others. Keep doing what your doing man and know what a powerful platform you have. God bless and take care.
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  • I\'m with Ashley, one of the kids I brought to the concert. I really enjoyed and am so thankful that you played here in Peoria. What a treat to hear such great music that I love and have listened to for such a long time! I appreciate you and your music so much! God bless you and your family and mus...
    I\'m with Ashley, one of the kids I brought to the concert. I really enjoyed and am so thankful that you played here in Peoria. What a treat to hear such great music that I love and have listened to for such a long time! I appreciate you and your music so much! God bless you and your family and music partners!
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  • Bebo, I love this song God of My Everything. My struggles are nothing like your brothers but my everything would be ending my 27 year marraige and not turning my struggles with my husband, children and inlaws over to the Lord. The years of emotional, mental, physical abuse, alientation of affection,...
    Bebo, I love this song God of My Everything. My struggles are nothing like your brothers but my everything would be ending my 27 year marraige and not turning my struggles with my husband, children and inlaws over to the Lord. The years of emotional, mental, physical abuse, alientation of affection, disrespect, sex/porn addiction and racism tooks its toll on me and I could no long tolerate this life style. My hope that this trial in our life will somehow be a blessing in disguise and will change us all to the glory of the Lord. Thank you for all you do. God Bless You!
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  • God\'s heart aches for ME? That is something that I struggle believing daily. Life is so tough and a has been quite the whirlwind. Sometimes I wonder where God is when divorces happen & families fall apart. I love the line in the song \"God of my pain that no one else will ever see\"....
    God\'s heart aches for ME? That is something that I struggle believing daily. Life is so tough and a has been quite the whirlwind. Sometimes I wonder where God is when divorces happen & families fall apart. I love the line in the song \"God of my pain that no one else will ever see\". Bebo, your song has become my prayer for my life. That God would be my everything, and that I would grasp that when the mountains do shake, he is still God and right by my side. I\'m waiting for the day that he gathers all my broken pieces and makes me new. What a hope that we see in this song. Thanks for reminding me of the truth I so often forget.
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  • The love of my life told me she didn\'t love me anymore on March 25, 2011. Together 3 years and marriage was a sure thing until that moment. With her love she also took away her 6 year old daughter who I loved like my own. They were my everything, but God through His mercy used this to wake me up a...
    The love of my life told me she didn\'t love me anymore on March 25, 2011. Together 3 years and marriage was a sure thing until that moment. With her love she also took away her 6 year old daughter who I loved like my own. They were my everything, but God through His mercy used this to wake me up and snatch me away from sex before marriage, pornography, and a life that was in open rebellion to Him. I still love them and miss them so much, but God has been working on my heart ever since. I want my life to be a sacrifice to God... an offering of everything I am for His glory. Please pray for me.
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  • This is for the person who posted about the pain from the botched neck surgery in 2009. I have lived with constant back/neck pain since 18 October 1987 after a head-on collision while riding a motorcycle. To date I\'ve had 42 surgeries on my spine, lost 19 of the 24 discs in the spine and am 79% fu...
    This is for the person who posted about the pain from the botched neck surgery in 2009. I have lived with constant back/neck pain since 18 October 1987 after a head-on collision while riding a motorcycle. To date I\'ve had 42 surgeries on my spine, lost 19 of the 24 discs in the spine and am 79% fused. Many of my friends constantly comment on the amount of medication I\'m on: I take enough pain medz to knock out an elephant, in a given day. There is a difference between being dependent on the medication and being addicted to it. I am dependent on the pain medz in order to function in a somewhat normal manner. I am not, however, addicted. In fact, I do not get \"high\" from my medications because there is so much pain there\'s not enough medication to complete wipe it out, much less enough to make me stoned. Being dependent means you require the medication in order to achieve an acceptable pain level in order to live your life. I\'ve struggled for many years with the question of why God hasn\'t healed me. I\'ve prayed, I\'ve claimed my healing, and many others have prayed for it, as well, and yet I still have the problems. I even broke my back twice in 13 months: first time in March 2010 and the 2nd in April 2011. Two different locations and two different types of break. The first one, I broke the L4 vertebrae completely through on a downward angle from back to front causing my upper spine to slide down in front of the lower spine. The second break was the fusion between L5 and S1. During surgery in January 2010 I was infected with 5 different bacteria, 3 of which each have a 90% fatality rate, even when being treated, but I wasn\'t treated for the infection because no one was aware I had it until December 2010. One of the bacteria is one Saddam Hussein\'s germ warfare man used to make a weapon. Medically, I should have died no later than June 2010. But, even though God has not given me the total, miraculous healing I have prayed, and longed, for, He has kept His hand on me and protected me and sustained me. I know He will do the same for you. Chronic pain is not something most people can understand. It is debilitating and it affects every single aspect of your life and permeates every minute of every day; but God is bigger than your pain. I don\'t know why I have had to deal with this for the past 24 years, but I do know this: God will use it not only for MY good, but He will use it for good for others. Maybe part of the purpose is what\'s happening right now: me being able to talk to you and tell you that there is hope. You are more than an overcomer through Christ Jesus. Even with my spinal issues, God has still worked so that I can do His music. He\'s opened doors that I couldn\'t even fathom and none of it would seem possible in light of my spine, but with God, ALL things are possible! Keep the faith and keep your hope. I\'ll be praying for you. I wish there was some way to either give you my eMail or get your contact information. I would love to be able to continue to encourage you as you walk through this valley; but know that on the other side of this valley is the mountaintop!
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  • I went to a Bebo Norman concert that night—the night of Sept. 11, 2001. I didn’t really know who he was at the time. I only knew a couple of my church friends really liked the guy and the tickets were $12 at Family Christian so I went. We called the store the day of to see if the concert was still ...
    I went to a Bebo Norman concert that night—the night of Sept. 11, 2001. I didn’t really know who he was at the time. I only knew a couple of my church friends really liked the guy and the tickets were $12 at Family Christian so I went. We called the store the day of to see if the concert was still on…you know, despite the…well, you know. They didn’t know so we just showed up. The guy who opened fumbled around the entire time. Sometimes his keyboard worked, sometimes it didn’t. I think he might have tripped over the cord, too. When Bebo Norman came out, he talked about how he didn’t really know what to say. Did anyone? So he just sang. “I don’t have a lot to give, this broken world can make it hard to live. I’ve got nothing left to say, my empty words have simply gone away…but this big blue sky shows me all that I have got, and you’re by my side to be everything I’m not…” And I think that in that moment, God spoke. Bebo Norman was just singing the song he’d written long before planes…well, you know. But when he was finished we all kind of knew that despite the mess we’d seen that morning, despite the words we didn’t have, the sky behind the smoke was blue. A bright blue. A promising blue. Some say our innocence was lost on that day. And it was. Mine was. I watched so much news coverage during that time that no other major world tragedy, crisis or other news event since then has impacted me like that one did. But I also think that day, and maybe even the days that followed, were full of our innocence. We cried for people we didn’t know as their names scrolled across our screens. Our churches were full of people who only knew to do one thing: pray. Our shock was so great, there seemed to be little to no room to hate anyone, perhaps because we didn’t yet know who to blame. Being patriotic in those days meant, “I’m glad to be a part of a family that mourns together and shows compassion to those we never met” not…“our country is better than yours.” Maybe I was naïve, but that’s what it meant to me then. Things have changed since then. I often believe there’s no way the country could ever care the way it did that day. I often believe there’s no way I could ever care the way I did that day. Daily I read stories of fires in my backyard, tornados that have torn through homes, floods that have displaced people and my heart no longer hurts for them. It’s numb. Hard. Indifferent. I skim through articles instead of focusing on names, faces and stories. I find it easier to read the comments on stories and think of how awful people are to each other. And am like a Pharisee, priding myself on being better than that. My innocence was lost that day. I changed. The world changed. But that big blue sky? It still reminds me that He never did.
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  • I\'ve been a Christian all my life and it has been both good and bad. I\'ve gone from not believing to be completely in God. A few weeks ago, I felt God\'s presence so incredible. The whole I was filled with a warmth I never felt before. It was absolutely wonderful. Now he is with me ever...
    I\'ve been a Christian all my life and it has been both good and bad. I\'ve gone from not believing to be completely in God. A few weeks ago, I felt God\'s presence so incredible. The whole I was filled with a warmth I never felt before. It was absolutely wonderful. Now he is with me every day and I\'m happy and confident in what I do. Everything is almost perfect. I feel sometimes that I am missing something. I wonder where it is. All I know is that God has a purpose in my life and I think eventually I will find what I miss.
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  • My 22 year old son committed suicide this spring. He battled with depression. Oh, the indescribable ache knowing that he is not with us anymore. There is someone else dear to me who has an addiction, but doesn\'t recognize it as that yet. I heard someone share on the radio this morning that we ...
    My 22 year old son committed suicide this spring. He battled with depression. Oh, the indescribable ache knowing that he is not with us anymore. There is someone else dear to me who has an addiction, but doesn\'t recognize it as that yet. I heard someone share on the radio this morning that we grow up learning that we are loved when we are good, but that\'s not how it is with God\'s love. God loves us where we are. If He was going to turn His back on us it would\'ve been at the cross, but He didn\'t. He turned His back on our sins that Jesus bore there for us!
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  • I\'m watching my beautiful 24 year old daughter go down a path of running away from God. In her teen years, she was so in love with God. She wanted to live her life for Him. Then at age 19, she was sexualy assaulted. That changed everything. She no longer trusts God, and continues to have relations...
    I\'m watching my beautiful 24 year old daughter go down a path of running away from God. In her teen years, she was so in love with God. She wanted to live her life for Him. Then at age 19, she was sexualy assaulted. That changed everything. She no longer trusts God, and continues to have relationships with guys that do not truly love or cherish her. As her Mom, I am heartbroken every day over the life she is living. I know God can redeem all her mess, but some days the pain is just too much.
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  • This song is my prayer this morning. When the mountain shake you are still God-You never change. And when the Earth gives way You are still God-You never change!! For four years my dad has been involved in an affair with the woman he dated in high school. This has turned my family upside down. My mom h...
    This song is my prayer this morning. When the mountain shake you are still God-You never change. And when the Earth gives way You are still God-You never change!! For four years my dad has been involved in an affair with the woman he dated in high school. This has turned my family upside down. My mom has gone through Hell and I have been dragged through it too. Yesterday was the worst of all days. My dad, who I haven\'t talked in almost 2 years, call me and said things that were so hurtful. Things about my mom, me and my brothers. Worst of all it made me doubt my mom. He also told me something he promised my mom he would never tell anyone. It involved past sins. Sins that my mom has asked God to cover! Hearing my mom tell me the stories of this sin broke my heart. But I know God has forgiven her. My earthly father has no capacity for forgiveness or forgetting, but this is not so with my Heavenly Father. A good friend pointed me to God through all of this misery. He asked me a few questions that completely changed my perspective. What is the truth in all of this? What does God say about you? What does it mean to be a Christian? I was then able to share that with my mom who has really struggled with letting God be the one that validates her. So back to this song. God I trust you with my pain, doubt, anger, and needs. I trust you to heal the broken! I trust you to be the God of my Everything!
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  • Hi ? Beckham....Bebo...was listening to a wow worship 30...dvd...caught your and rich mullins name...1st song...amazing voice...hope all is well and the Lord Jesus has blessed you abundantly as with me...only maybe not so crazy a mind as I....perhaps write a few songs...pick the gutiar...have fun with t...
    Hi ? Beckham....Bebo...was listening to a wow worship 30...dvd...caught your and rich mullins name...1st song...amazing voice...hope all is well and the Lord Jesus has blessed you abundantly as with me...only maybe not so crazy a mind as I....perhaps write a few songs...pick the gutiar...have fun with the kiddos...hope to really meet you someday..in a church perspective...laugh-live...all to all...amen.... psss...i never remember ever telling anyone this in person...perhaps you heard in a whisper but i feel i was put in God\'s hands as a infant and he gave prayer to me...I love Jesus with all my heart...Hope you do too...my phone is ringin ggt
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  • Bebo, can you please come to Holland some time? I\'d really like to see you perform these beautiful songs live. They touch my heart, everytime i hear them. It feels like you sometimes deal with the same struggles in experiencing fears. I am living with an anxiety disorder for 5 years now, and the ...
    Bebo, can you please come to Holland some time? I\'d really like to see you perform these beautiful songs live. They touch my heart, everytime i hear them. It feels like you sometimes deal with the same struggles in experiencing fears. I am living with an anxiety disorder for 5 years now, and the song \'great light of the world\' helps me throuth it sometimes. Thank you!
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  • In 1998 I contracted Lymes Disease. and for the past 13 years of affects of it on my body have caused me to go through a serious drug addiction. I am sober now but the pain wracks my body daily.I would appreciate your prayers. Thanks and BLESS you.
  • Quero contar minha hitoria a respeito da canção I Hope you see Jesus, Em 2011 minha vó falesceu e eu estava muito angustiada porque minha relação comela era muito superficial pois ela e minha mãe quando jovens não se davam muitgo bem isso refletiu em nossa relação. Por muitas vezes eu quis abra...
    Quero contar minha hitoria a respeito da canção I Hope you see Jesus, Em 2011 minha vó falesceu e eu estava muito angustiada porque minha relação comela era muito superficial pois ela e minha mãe quando jovens não se davam muitgo bem isso refletiu em nossa relação. Por muitas vezes eu quis abraçar minha vó, mais ela era muito fria e distante, dias antes dela morrer ela esteve em minha casa e nos convidou para seu aniversario, eu nem imaginava que aquele aniversario seria uma despedida, uma semana depois de madrugada recebi a noticia que ela havia falescido, e esta foi minha oração em vafor de minha vó I hopeyhou see Jesus.
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  • The LORD has started to show me what other people have recognised. I have a problem with alcohol. It cost me the love of my life, however the LORD will use that for good (although it hurts). I want to want nothing but the LORD. It is remarkable how the LORD has brought me back after I went away for ...
    The LORD has started to show me what other people have recognised. I have a problem with alcohol. It cost me the love of my life, however the LORD will use that for good (although it hurts). I want to want nothing but the LORD. It is remarkable how the LORD has brought me back after I went away for a long time.
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