Daybreak

I woke up for the day at 4:30 this morning, certainly not according to plan. I can’t for the life of me think of a rational reason to intentionally wake up at 4:30 in the morning. Ever. The long and short of it is that I tend to not sleep as well in general when I’m in a season of writing…if I stir even slightly in the middle of the night, my brain tends to flip it’s switch and start running away with things.  Add in the typical night-time interruptions of a 3-year old and an 8 month old and the trio makes for a lot of early mornings or late nights, depending on your perspective. This morning I woke up with a song idea in my head, and as with most song ideas if I don’t record them or write them down immediately, they will most often be lost forever. Some writers say that if you can’t remember an idea a few hours or even days later that it’s not worth remembering. I, on the other hand, like to think that most of my best songs ever are lost songs – forgotten somewhere between waking up and falling asleep again or driving down some interstate when I couldn’t reach my recorder packed away in my backpack in the trunk. Or at least that’s what I used to like to tell myself. A friend of mine once suggested that I keep my recorder next to my bed so that when I woke up with song ideas I could empty my mind of them right away and then roll over an go right back to sleep. Not a good idea. I’m already a pretty irrational sleeper – MAJOR sleep-talker, and when I was younger a sleep-walker (way to many stories to tell in one blog – but a good blog idea nonetheless…note to self). So, the reality of things, at least according to my brief experiment with the bedside recorder, was that when I woke up the next morning I usually didn’t even remember recording anything in the middle of the night. So it was rarely until weeks later that I happened to pick up my recorder in an actual middle-of-the-day conscious and rational hour and find myself thoroughly horrified at the imposter that must have stolen it at some point when I wasn’t looking and recorded some cruel joke of a song on it. Seriously, they were that bad. So the only thing that little experiment succeeded in was robbing me of my theory of lost songs. Now I’m content to let my “dream songs” just stay dream songs. But then there are the moments like this morning. This wasn’t a dream song, it was a real one. One that I’ve actually been working on for years (seriously) – but have never found the right chorus too.  As my eyes opened and the melody started stirring, I realized quickly that all hope of sleep was lost. But on mornings like this one, it didn’t matter. It was still dark out, and rainy, and there was a beautiful melody playing in my mind that was still beautiful even after I was mildly coherent. I love writing songs. And this one felt like daybreak. Not so much a sunrise, but a grey and rainy and beautiful daybreak. I’ll let y’all hear it soon, if it stands the test of time.


5 Responses

  • Lisa Mongold wrote on March 22, 2010

    Very cool! I love hearing how different song writers go about their business. Your story about the early hour recording is hilarious...as I'm sure it would be horrific to hear what I had to say in that state. I just had surgery the other day and the anesthesiologist said I was totally talking to him before the surgery. I have NO recollection! Scary. Can't wait to hear some of your new songs. I miss you and Gabe from your days on the RAWRS tour. (I went by SunnySide) in the chat. Take care:)


  • David Goei wrote on March 22, 2010

    Haha dream songs are good man but when you get one and wake up, you have to continue to let it run in your mind and on your lips. Either way, I love those moments like the one you had, where God steps in and makes things beautiful and complete :)


  • Lindsay wrote on March 22, 2010

    Wow! I can't wait to hear that one if it is good enough to get you up from your sleep! You continue to inspire me.


  • Joni B. wrote on March 25, 2010

    I sing in the car when composing new songs but sans voice recorder. i just sing and sing til I get home or stopped someplace i can scribble lyrics down. i figure if the melody holds on and i can look at lyrics a few days later and still sing it, it's worth messing with. if not, then it's probably not. Just posted my newest song, called "MORE" on my blogsite ... www.mission1226.wordpress.com Your songs inspire me so much ... would love love love to hear what you think about this one.


  • Rosalina wrote on December 10, 2013

    You did really great job and you are deserve for it. We are providing college writing websites for college work. Education is need of everyone who living this world now.



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