The Something

So, it took a grand total of 10 whole days for me to fail at my commitment to blog every day for the rest of the year.  I can’t say I didn’t see it coming.  Probably an unrealistic goal in the first place I suppose, but I’m one of those odd types that has to see the end, or at least set a goal that points toward the end, before I really start moving. I’m in the same boat right now as I get ready to head into the studio this Spring to make a new record – I’m busy finding all SORTS of projects around the house to finish rather that sitting down to finish a song.  The truth is, I’m finding that blogging is sort of similar to writing songs in that there’s a certain pressure you can put on yourself to perform, to be “profound” or something.  There’s always a subtle fear that the well just might have run dry this time.  But if the goal of writing a blog every single day is to try to find the value in that day, “the something” about that day that’s actually worth writing about, the fear that the search just might end up in vein can be paralyzing.  Because lying within that search for “the something” is a sometimes poorly veiled need to find our own validation.  So when the inevitable day rolls around that for whatever myriad of reasons (take your pick) feels devoid of any particular meaning, silly as it sounds I can that quickly begin to wonder if that means my life is devoid of it as well.  And to be honest, sometimes it’s easier to just pretend like you were never looking in the first place than to look and not find anything.  That tendency to be oblivious has been a “faithful friend” to me in darker seasons…like drink to a drunk.  I spent most of my 20’s declaring my utter ineptitude for relationship – that I might just not be “capable” of love – until I met a woman that loved me so well and so deeply that I had no choice but to love her back.  The reality is this:  there is indeed meaning in every single day of this life, some days we just don’t have eyes to see.  And the deeper reality is this:  that’s okay.  I’m thankful that the story being told about each one of us is a long and winding one.  I’m thankful that there are days, entire seasons, shrouded in mystery and even confusion.  I’m thankful because those days of darkness are the stage upon which the scenes of redemption and goodness and clarity are played out.  There is no resurrection without death and no truth without trial.

So that’s my “something” for today…it just took me three days to see it.

7 Responses

  • David G wrote on January 26, 2010

    Hey Bebo, I read a suggestion where, if you do not feel like posting a long post in your blog, instead, you think of the most critical event/s of the day and then jot it down in ONE SENTENCE. This way, you will not find blogging a chore and you will still have a mosaic of memories for the year, with longer entries for the days when you are in the mood or if you feel it is of great importance. Hope to be hearing more from you soon, I just realised that you composed 'I Will Lift My Eyes', easily one of my top faves along with 'Disappear' and the usual mix! All the best!

  • glenna wrote on January 26, 2010

    I completely get it...totally relate! Thank you!!

  • Amy wrote on January 26, 2010

    David G. has some great suggestions. Or you can sit down to write a few posts at one time, post a neat picture, reflect on one of your songs, have a guest blogger (hint, hint). There are lots of wants to keep this puppy going on a daily basis. I used to think I should post on Backseat Writer every day. Then I though, maybe just Monday-Friday. Now I'm trying to do Mon/Wed/Fri because not only is it a lot for me to do, but it's also a lot for people to read--another consideration for your readers (not that we don't love hearing your thoughts). Just don't make blogging another thing you *have* to do or it'll become a chore REAL fast. I started blogging in 2004 and now it's part of my livelihood as a writer. :) Thanks for challenging me to find meaning in every day of my life.

  • Bebo wrote on January 26, 2010

    that's a great idea David G...thanks for the scoop. lots of intriguing sentences coming soon!!

  • jen wrote on January 26, 2010

    i like this! thanks for blogging : )

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  • Chris wrote on September 27, 2010

    I like almost every song on the following. What is the matter with me personally? Kiss the Girl will be the best, however. POST even had the particular one on my mp3 player. To get, such as, heavy lifting at the gym. Really, that’s just what exactly it was…

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